Shame Of Asking For Support

[Chava]

My bladder isn't even working because of this situation (inflammation in that area and pain meds making all of my muscles stupid). I'll stop before TMI, but I feel like I'm back or more "present" so this is just annoying...I'm not afraid my body is falling apart. I'll just pee really regularly, try smaller dose of painkillers and bigger dose of anti-inflamatories, and run for it if I have to.....and call my doctor. Funny I can even feel like my adult self in this situation, but really feeling what a difference it makes when I pull out of the "glue"...where everything, past and present, is glued together and I can't think straight or make good decisions or not be overwhelmed because my body is stuck many years behind me. I hope this awareness helps me next time...or, I'd like at least a shorter meltdown. And I really hope the pain settles while I still have my head.

 

[lookingup]

Peeing all night??? I thought it was my meds, but discovered that I had IC (interstitial Cyctitis) Inflammation of the bladder. Taking medication now for it, but any bad dreams or stress causes flare ups. I guess Ill just add that one to my list. Somehow along the way, I guess my body is trying to tell me its had enough stress.