DiamondBug
Bronze Member
So I am approaching the "anniversary" of when I was attacked. I feel around this time my sleep worsens and the nightmares, today was the worst it's been in a while. I set alarms and slept all through them. It feels like I am aware in my sleep I have slept through my alarms, but I'm completely trapped in my nightmare. It massively effects my mood. It makes me feel too scared to go to work. I almost feel not there all day when it's happened. This morning it almost felt like my body was drunk, I had no balance or awareness of what was around me at all. I just can't keep in the present, I drift away in my own thoughts that make me worse and they are impossible to stop. I was uncontrollably shaking when I woke up. Now I feel slightly better but I'm still not okay, because my hypervigilance is crippling now, I feel crazy. I have so many things I need to do on my dinner break but I'm trapped at my work because I darent leave, there's too many people for me to cope with right now. Also during these times I can almost feel my injuries still but worse than normal, sometimes it's suddenly I'll feel like my stomach has been slashed again or something and I'll uncontrollably put my hands as a shield to reassure myself that no ones touching me.
Is there anything that will take this edge of these next few months? This will be the 11th year (wasn't diagnosed until last year) I've suffered with it being worse during the same time of year. If anyone has any advice on how to make this a bit easier, it'd be really helpful
Is there anything that will take this edge of these next few months? This will be the 11th year (wasn't diagnosed until last year) I've suffered with it being worse during the same time of year. If anyone has any advice on how to make this a bit easier, it'd be really helpful
