To Be Or Not To Be

[Deleted member 28403]

I am thinking of starting with Normabel (diazepham pills, seems similar to Vallium?) pills during day as well, instead of just night. Currently I take 10 mg of diazepham in pills which gets me to fall asleep in about an hour. They help me calm down and lower anxiety enough for me to fall asleep, though nightmares still stay. I am thinking of taking them during day to make it easier for me to get through the day. I am thinking of about 10 mg one hour before going to school and 10 more after school, before musicians school. I believe they would help me get through the day and probably rise my productivity, instead of me just staring at the paper for a while, till I give up, which sometimes happens. That would probably help me cope with stress induced anxiety as well, so I'm for those pills. I am thinking of going like that for a few months to test.

 

[digger]

Diazepam is Valium. Are you considering this increase under guidance from a doctor?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I thought Vallium were a certain brand of pills that contained diazepham. I will contact my doctor about it, but I was offered that before, but refused.

 

[digger]

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diazepam

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Already googled it, no need for the link.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Valium is addictive. You start taking the drug that much and you will be setting yourself up to become addicted to it.

Have you thought of learning some coping skills?

 

[digger]

Already googled it, no need for the link.

Sorry for taking the time to help. You were querying it being the same thing as Valium, Google quickly shows you it is...

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@Ayesha
I have, but I live in a city I quite hate, and I will be moving probably the next school year. I don't really care about addiction... 3 months is the max total I would go, including stopping period. Coping methods work to a certain point, but I really can't live normally like this. I can't take a single word, I don't have the nerves to live like this, just bursting at almost every thing said to me. I can only panic, rage and fall into depression, and I barely get through weekends.

@digger
Sorry for being nervous while talking like this, it's just that it's the sunday, and 7:30 pm, so I'm cracking up. And I said thought, not think, thus in past.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

In general, not such a great idea. Benzodiazepines are dependence causing and believe me, you do NOT want to become dependent upon them. I've withdrawn three times now and it was no fun at all. (Yeah, don't ask!) Having said that, I still have an active prescription for Ativan, but I know that I shouldn't be taking it too often so I don't. If you think your symptoms are bad now, they will be 10x worse if you have to go through withdrawals. It really is a med that should only be taken "as needed".

ETA

You don't care about addiction? Uhm, go to the benzo buddies website and read the horror stories. We're not talking about a drug you can detox off of and be OK in a couple of weeks like many drugs out there. We're talking about prolonged withdrawals with long tapers. I realize that you're young and you have no idea what true addiction is, but believe us when we say you don't want to go there.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@Solara

Well, what do I do then?

 

[bell]

Please listen to your doctor and don't start your own regimen because you think it might work better.

It's the quickest way to make things worse for you, at a time where you need to be healing, not trying to go off label.

As to "what do you do?" Listen to your doctor. Tell them what is going wrong. If things don't get better in time, see another doctor. Tell them what is going wrong. You will find something that works.

I know at 14 you think you know everything, but I promise you, you do not. That's on thing you learn with age, sometimes we need other people to help us because sometimes we cannot fix ourselves. And I know that sometimes it's easy to think the world is against you, but that's only because you're looking through broken lenses.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I said I will contact the doctor about it.