A handful of days ago I decided to open up to my parents about how I've been seeing a therapist for about a year and have decided that medication is something that would greatly help me.
I originally didn't want to tell them. My parents were really physically abusive for most of my life and only stopped roughly two years ago. Nowadays it's just my mom being verbally abusive and manipulative, as well as abrasive. Which is typical.
Everything was telling me to not tell her, but when I met with multiple doctors to try and figure out why I was having these terribly physical pains, my rheumatologist suggested I pursue psychiatric help as well.
So finally, I decided I would tell them a little since I wouldn't be able to afford a psychiatrist and medication on my own.
My parents are old school and closed minded. They treat physical ailments more seriously than psychiatric, but even then my mom likes to doubt me. She's never been supportive and won't believe anything I'm going through despite what the medical records say.
Anyways. I finally decide to have a serious conversations, which i knew wouldn't go smoothly. I told them that I would not want them to talk to their friends about me because that's what my mom does best, and, of course, my mom got defensive.
She then started to say it would be a waste for me to go, that I wouldn't even take the medication, etc. (She referred to a time when I was younger when they tried to sneak medication into my foods without my knowledge, but I found it early on and did what I could to stop going to any doctors. Eventually I did.)
A few days ago she didn't know I was going to a doctor's appointment, not a psychiatric appointment, and she sent me long texts stating "Your FATHER AND I have to be involved in your choice of doctors" and that "if you do not let us make the final decision then you will be kicked off OUR insurance."
I replied, admittedly pretty ticked off with them due to the prior texts sent, stating that I will choose the doctors I go to because they are my doctors and I will be the one to have to deal with them. Was that wrong of me? I understand that the insurance is theirs, but I plan on paying the co-pay if I can afford it. If I can't then I will find another doctor.
They've always wanted to be involved and it ticks me off because they never back off. I was able to keep them out of the loop about my mental health for a long time and I regret opening up to them, despite my need for the help of the insurance. I didn't tell them any details other than the fact that I've been seeing a therapist and this was her suggested treatment along with the other doctor's suggestions. This is more of a rant, I guess, but I'm also trying to figure out how to deal with my mother. I'm trying to get out as soon as I can just to get away and cut ties with them. There's more to it than what I mentioned, but I don't see the need to explain it all. I'm just really upset toward my mother, mainly, and my decision to tell them about what the doctors suggestion. I regret doing so, so much.
I originally didn't want to tell them. My parents were really physically abusive for most of my life and only stopped roughly two years ago. Nowadays it's just my mom being verbally abusive and manipulative, as well as abrasive. Which is typical.
Everything was telling me to not tell her, but when I met with multiple doctors to try and figure out why I was having these terribly physical pains, my rheumatologist suggested I pursue psychiatric help as well.
So finally, I decided I would tell them a little since I wouldn't be able to afford a psychiatrist and medication on my own.
My parents are old school and closed minded. They treat physical ailments more seriously than psychiatric, but even then my mom likes to doubt me. She's never been supportive and won't believe anything I'm going through despite what the medical records say.
Anyways. I finally decide to have a serious conversations, which i knew wouldn't go smoothly. I told them that I would not want them to talk to their friends about me because that's what my mom does best, and, of course, my mom got defensive.
She then started to say it would be a waste for me to go, that I wouldn't even take the medication, etc. (She referred to a time when I was younger when they tried to sneak medication into my foods without my knowledge, but I found it early on and did what I could to stop going to any doctors. Eventually I did.)
A few days ago she didn't know I was going to a doctor's appointment, not a psychiatric appointment, and she sent me long texts stating "Your FATHER AND I have to be involved in your choice of doctors" and that "if you do not let us make the final decision then you will be kicked off OUR insurance."
I replied, admittedly pretty ticked off with them due to the prior texts sent, stating that I will choose the doctors I go to because they are my doctors and I will be the one to have to deal with them. Was that wrong of me? I understand that the insurance is theirs, but I plan on paying the co-pay if I can afford it. If I can't then I will find another doctor.
They've always wanted to be involved and it ticks me off because they never back off. I was able to keep them out of the loop about my mental health for a long time and I regret opening up to them, despite my need for the help of the insurance. I didn't tell them any details other than the fact that I've been seeing a therapist and this was her suggested treatment along with the other doctor's suggestions. This is more of a rant, I guess, but I'm also trying to figure out how to deal with my mother. I'm trying to get out as soon as I can just to get away and cut ties with them. There's more to it than what I mentioned, but I don't see the need to explain it all. I'm just really upset toward my mother, mainly, and my decision to tell them about what the doctors suggestion. I regret doing so, so much.
