Too Tired For School And Work

[Leisel]

I hate my job but I make $10/hour. It's only part time right now but in a month or so could be full time. The problem is I am way too tired all the time to do anything let alone work at a job I freaking hate and I try to go to school I'm really trying but I get sick (physically sick) and I get tired a lot and I can't do the big assignments like I have an essay due tonight that I have 3 pages left to write because between school, work, and volunteering, I have not had the time. And right now I can't write three more pages. I'm f-ing exhausted. Plus my major is social work and I don't even know if I can BE a social worker because of ptsd and I worry I won't be able to deal with the flashbacks. So what's the point of staying in school? But if I don't stay in school what's the point of anything else?
And as busy as I am I still don't make enough money for rent anywhere in my city and I am couch surfing right now which makes me even more tired.
I'm so tired. I don't know what to do. What do you think of dropping out? Or quitting since it doesn't matter anyway?
I don't know I just want to give up on everything.

 

[Friday]

I've taken quarters off, before. Just because I took the quarter? Doesn't mean I dropped out. It meant I took 3 months to sort some shit.

I'd be worried about losing financial aid -or having to pay for 2 quarters out of pocket to come out of aid suspension- dropping midquarter, though. But personally, I almost always took winter quarter off, and then went to school over the summer.

Even if you need several thousand volunteer hours for your degree? Of the 3 major time/energy sucks you listed, that's the one I would look to, first.

All that said? 1 late paper, or 1 missing paper, or 1 reeeeeally bad &/or incomplete paper? Not the end of the world. I get the progression, am totally notorious for it, but 1 paper = quit school forever? A little bit of a huge giant effing leap, there. Catastrophizing. Take a deep breath & step back. A whole lot of interim steps in between those 2 things.

 

[aut555]

Ok , think it's great you are this far. Sadly, this is school life, we over extend ourselves everywhere and people are tired that don't even have ptsd. For answers, can you do some type of exercise? That helped me manage more, including my emotions? Can you swim or treadmill somewhere. Just 30 mins a day will lift some of your funk, l didn't say all, but some. Can you find a free clinic and get temp medication to help you cope, or walk into emergency room and say you need something for anxiety until you get appt with? Can you pull back on volunteering until you feel better? Good luck. It's good you are here thinking things out.

 

[Freedomfighter]

I hate my job but I make $10/hour. It's only part time right now but in a month or so could be full time...

I was in the same situation, went to embark on a new career field, but noticed very fast that PTSD places a gigantic physical burden on the patient. I tried cat naps, scratched almost all social life situations and was sooooo proud when I succeeded, without anyone else's money, without anyone's connections, without any kind of assistance I put myself through school and got two different degrees in my chosen career field. It was incredibly tough and I can only say that I am proud every day that I did not give up. People react with a lot of jealousy though when finding out about such accomplishments.

 

[henamedmeowl]

I struggle in similar ways and have similar thoughts. I'm tired as hell and struggling in my graduate program I don't know if the major is right for me and do that's not helping but the pay will be incredible when I graduate. I think sometimes I should do a lesser program....maybe this is too much but then I really don't know. I'm so tired and just want to quit and go to work ...I don't know anymore I feel so sick and my body hurts from the anxiety but I keep pushing thinking to myself I can't quit but it all hurts so much. I hope that you are ok.

 

[Deleted member 37868]

I hate my job but I make $10/hour. It's only part time right now but in a month or so could be full time...

I'm there right now! I feel like dropping out, but I don't think my life would be worth living if I did. I would recommend don't do it. Is there any way you could move back home or would you go insane if u had to do that? Then you could just focus on school. It sounds like your major might not be right for you, there are other options. At least you're not getting a philosophy degree like me lol. The pressure to get into law school is overwhelming for me at the moment, I just feel like dropping out of society let alone school. Talk to someone at school what your options are, at the end of the day an education is really your best bet.