1992 found myself enraged and so f'n angry at my mother I apparently had placed my hands around her throat and had these terrible feelings and urges. I don't believe I physc. hurt her, I do believe I scared her and myself really bad. Sickening, oh' so f'n sickening.
.........she had turned on my sister and I at about the age of 6, she had to expect something, you just can't abuse and deny causing your own daughters to continue to live daily for yrs., in fears, terror, anguish and grief at the hands of her and some f'n strange lunatic and then blame daughters, and/or look appalled when these same daughters, lose their f'n minds.
Absolutely regret this behavior of mine, and wish this one was not for real, regardless. Rather wishing it was just a bad, bad nightmare.