It is from my own experience there is no such thing as a safe relationship except with oneself. The only person who can help you is you and you are the one who can make the decisions you do. Listen to your gut instinct, first and foremost, and it will tell you if you are ready or not. Don't force the issue if you are not ready because it could cause damage to you much worse than it is now. You are a person, you are not a disease and you are not PTSD. We just have it, that's all.