Yearly Exam And Ptsd

[Lostregien]

Today was an extremely rough day for me. I had my yearly exam, and during it I cried. I felt embarrassed. I wanted to hit the nurse’s practitioner in the face, but I know that it’s not her fault. It really felt like I was being like raped or molested violently. When I think about it I want to cry, because I’m like, what I can’t be intimate with my boyfriend? What will he think of me then? He’ll think I’m damaged, that I don’t work right, and that I can’t have a real relationship with him because I’m defected.

 

[Sandra]

Don't be so hard on yourself sweetie. I take it you were sexually abused in the past? If so then I can understand you having problems with this issue. Any kind of abuse can take so long to get over. And it damages a person so bad. Are you in therapy?

 

[Lostregien]

Yeah, but we haven't covered the issues yet. And I'm also trying to get over my mom taking my little brother (who is closest to me) with her to Texas. Also, when I was in the hospital for the hallucinations and voices, she just took him and left on a random Saturday while I was stuck in the hospital. So I haven't seen them in three weeks. I didn't even get to say goodbye. And it just really, really hurts.

 

[Sandra]

Big hugs for you.

 

[Lostregien]

Thanks. :tup: