You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ronin]

When ^ is one of your numerous problems with chaotic civvies. Not only they're slow, they're disorganized as f*ck and being out of sync when moving and not particularly working at being out of sync reads danger & death.

Also when you're happy for one more identified severe & constant stressor you knew is there, but couldn't pin point.

 

[Ronin]

When things sounding as grenades in the distance calm you the f*ck down.

Home. Alive, home, safe, breathing, at ease, functional, composed, compatible, calm. Everything is just today's worry & tomorrow will happen as the goddamn plan is, only with the slight alterations as required.

Winner always, all the way.

Then you realize /that/ is mindfulness & core of what you do when meditating right, no matter the method. Replicate that motherf*cker, you don't need wars for this.

 

[Anrish]

When you get nervous what to tell new people - and when you freeze as soon as you hear that they have similar interests as your abusers.

 

[Ronin]

When ^^ is one of the biggies of why you're not coping with interaction, and are extremely functional in other settings. Just someone tell me I'm not the scumbags I've hunted & that hurt people & I'll be fine.

When you have no idea if vulnerable shares lines make sense anywhere outside of your head.

 

[ElleKaye]

When you apologize for sneezing and then remember that others don't think it sounds like screaming and don't tense up when they hear it

 

[Anrish]

When you are so tense that everything just slips through your fingers and falls to the ground.

 

[Ronin]

When you need to remember suicide is a dead end, not crossing your body as badly as it betrayed you.

And when you are happy about the above, because thinking in terms of enemy-ally-traitor-friend? Is thinking.

 

[Anrish]

When you feel it is your fault that you get bullied by your chief all the time.

 

[Ronin]

When... move out, depression. I just heard some f*cked up shit, above, and protective anger rises me to my feet.

 

[Anrish]

When your work week ends - you enter the subway home and mentally break down.

 

[Trinket]

When you have to go home and emotionally and physically recover after a day at work, social event, or even a shopping trip..

 

[Ronin]

When you work on building several shelters outside of your home as neither near people, nor 'home', is safe.