You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Friday]

but we're not igniting charges /either/

I'm torn between laughing and crying. :hilarious:

Only damn fuse I could ever count on actually burning at the rate I expected it to. >.<

Rule # f*ck-if-I-know: 3 second fuses never last 3 seconds. Ever. Not in the history of time. 3 second fuses are named as such because that's the one goldurned moment in time shit ain't gonna go boom. Any moment before or after is up for grabs.

:speechless: Steadfastly refusing to think about blending in, in public. f*ck. Too late. I *know* I had some other reason to be outside during the years Id quit. Thinking. Thinking. Thinking. Nope. Dammit. It will come to me. Eventually.

 

[Ronin]

I'm torn between laughing and crying. :hilarious:

Laughing! :D Definitely laughing. /Some/ f*ckups just got to be genuinely funny.

Frustration & meltdown about equipment is always better when it's funny.

 

[Ronin]

When...

Let's cling to self loathing. A part of you that nobody can kill. Because endurance gets worn out.
Love & Compassion? /Are/ the enemies. Self loathing means surviving bad adversity & is a beloved ally.

 

[Anrish]

When you cannot show anger.

When you just feel empty.

 

[420kitty]

Human interaction too early gets on your nerves, but you try to ignore it. Then end up having an anger outburst.

 

[Anrish]

When you differ between your body, your mind and yourself.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When jumping to conclusions and taking things personally is sometimes your "normal" way of perceiving things. Like just by default you find yourself standing on a conclusion or an assumption you just jumped to with your feelings hurt. And as you realize you've done it again you stand there kicking yourself because, again? Really? Of course.

 

[Anrish]

When being tired makes you whiny and aggressive at the same time.

 

[Ronin]

You have more crisis hotlines in your contacts than contacts -
And use exactly none of them because that means talking & talking tangled stuff.

You remember the names of everyone that can't return, but not of anyone you met just last month.
Remembering the names of people from bits of Normal Life you've had as school is a victory... then you remember all the trauma you forgot them for and facepalm again.

When, all around, you've had a wonderful, sunny life full of traveling and meeting interesting fellas -
If you cut 98 percent of everything that went on. Up sides? You can smile about it. I'm fine.

 

[Anrish]

When you feel uncomfortable when people trust you.

 

[Ronin]

When you don't trust yourself when others trust you, but heck, the other way is still the madness you can't navigate... so let's stick to the madness you have /some/ tools for. Not saying good tools. Not saying useful. But some. Present. Grabbable.

 

[Friday]

"If you are going to blow your brains out, could you wait until you're out on the high seas to do it? I just mopped these floors." - Logan

:roflmao: :hilarious: ^^^ Strikes you as just funny as f*ck. Had to pause the movie I was laughing so damn hard. And recalls far too many real life convos.

This is also why I don't ring crises lines. Because the shit that actually works? Ain't what they're trained in.