When you go from fully functioning to smuggling diazepam in your bra in to a psych ward, cause you've over dosed recently and they wont give you any of your usual meds!
When you cant cope with the 15 minute bloody checks all night where the light gets switched on, or a torch is shone in your face!
When you have to pee or shower in 14 minutes before the next check so they don't see you naked and you dont lose the plot!
Where your considering how to take apart the screws and grills on the windows because if your stuck in a psych ward any longer you may attack your neighbour with their colouring pencils
When you dont give a shit, and decide that curled up on the floor in the shower in the dark, is safer than your bed where the nightmares are.