You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Friday]

When someone you trust in most ways asks you if you have firearms in the house... So you answer truthfully, and the conversation carries on for a few hours on unrelated topics... And then spend the next two days gutted over why they asked you. :cautious::shifty:

 

[Ronin]

When it takes you sixteen hours to identify a trigger.

& When your idea of 'grounding' is still triggering yourself, just to different things. This base is mine, bitch. Yo flag repainted & replaced.

 

[expectingbetter]

I am suffocating from emotional pain which feels unbearable

 

[Anrish]

When you need to leave work to heal but when you are also afraid of the place that is supposed to help you to heal.

 

[Friday]

When your motivational speeches to yourself? Might get you punched in the face if said to someone else :whistling:

 

[ladee]

When you look around the cluttered mess you live in and want to post pictures on FB that this is what months long depression looks like.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

@ladee thinking of you and sending hugs. You are not alone in depression today.:hug:

 

[Ronin]

When people around you being kind to you terrifies you on levels you can't explain.

FFS. That's normal people. It's not deception. And knock out that thinking of everyone it was just deception. And everyone good & kind that was too good and kind for their own good.

And when you're scared to talk. Even found words for the mess, but no. Because talking just means pain, from people you trusted the most, kind of inevitably.

So you go back to resorting to talking to holy books & tarot cards. Don't laugh at me, it's things and not people, it don't hurt the same.

 

[mumstheword]

You find out your kid is going to America and it scared the shite out of you

scared

Scares

 

[Anrish]

When you prefer to stay inside your room and lock out the world.

 

[Candleflames]

When you nearly punch your kid in the face cause you heard the floor squeak around the corner and are ready to take on an intruder.

 

[Anrish]

When you need to be reminded how to be kind and present more than once.