You know you have PTSD, when for the first time you shudder then shake wildly, in shock as tears flow from your eyes and caught off guard being suffocated by your own subconscious. Now unable to breathe, as in this moment time stands still, as you are now physically and mentally paralyzed. In this moment your feeling the worst feeling us humans possibly can, but for this price you will understand how precious life is and youll see that in this life we have nothing to lose but everything to give.
All you say and do is sincere and depending on where in the world you are, you may be a majority or a minority, you may be welcomed and amongst friends, or you may very well be alien and isolated. You will become disgusted and furious in all the selfish behaviour your now aware of, you will have to be strong and do so much for these people in your own mind, just so you don’t act on the feelings which you are compelled by. To come to understand they don’t know what they are really doing or saying, they don’t realy know what matters thus far.
It is multiple struggles like these that you will come to handle effortlessly as time goes by which will give you such insight, that can only give you some kind of peace. This is what I found and as some one who no longer has it. I would just like to let you all know this pain you have enables you to be that of angels.
I think I would rate this like a 3 and a half out of 1 - 10 to rate of what I could have written.