You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Changing4Best]

Oh yea, I see things that are not there all the time, sort of like shadows.

 

[Recovery4Me]

*When you unpack your boxes from shipping and you see your PTSD Manual! :roflmao:

*When people tell you that you did 'good' because you didn't react on a past negative trigger (like we don't grow).:cautious:

*When you live among new roommates, place a machete in your window for extra brace & then wonder why they act skittish the next day.:bored:

 

[Anrish]

When you are looking forward to see a movie and get so nervous with all the people waiting with you in the cinema....I almost couldn't enjoy the movie.

 

[notsurewheretoturn]

You always sit at the back of the bus so no one can sit behind you and you can keep an eye on everyone else.

 

[Ocean5]

When you live in a secure building with "double lock" on building door in safe area. Video surveillance records entrance, all common areas, and hallways.

- Out of habit & fear - you still use a door stop.
- Keep police grade pepper spray next to bed.
- Have webcam set-up to record any motion when you leave apartment.
- Keep Xanax on, or near you, in case of bad panic attack.

 

[Friday]

When what you want the most, is what you do not allow yourself to have.

 

[Ronin]

When... bajeez, you're again staring at me? I should quit hallucinating old mates. The accusing looks must be regrets. More of those things I don't stick even to poems.

 

[Ocean5]

When you get so upset that you get the hiccups

Then they start again... when you just want to sleep, and try to get some peace...

 

[Kailani]

When you jump out of your skin at tires peeling out and you just would rather not being touched

 

[jaccat]

When the relaxation exercise your therapist has you do to get to sleep just ensures you stay awake all night!

 

[Anrish]

When you start to tremble after colleague told you and told you that you cannot do the usual paperwork forever and should go into administrative work...

 

[Changing4Best]

Oh yea, the usual battle to stay asleep is at it again. I think I may have gotten 4 hours or so before waking and wide awake as usual. I swear my abuser must have hurt me then, so I wake to watch out for him and hide! I do recall climbing out of my crib as a very young child. I just cannot recall what happened after that, like did I hide in my closet maybe? I would not doubt it!