Wierd Experience In Therapy

[Ellabella44]

sigh every time i go something else comes out... decided to work on the lesser of my scary boxes that are coming up present in my current time line. while talking i made a motion with my right hand and she asked me what that movement meant to me... it was turning the experience down to a level where I could talk about it. then she had me continue making the motion and talk about it.... it was hard to do. to me I felt i was stuttering, that my speech was at well mentally retarded or deaf pattern and hearing commentary on the left side of my head about what was going on. she told me to her it just sounded like i was talking slower... but it was really hard getting any words out. I have never had this happen before.

 

[Nam]

We've had discussions in the past about why we tend to share more when there is background processing going on. For example; why do people share more freely when they are driving vs. not driving. I know that I for sure am one of those people. Slightly related to this is how feel better after knitting for long periods of time. It's stream of consciousness while doing a repetitive movement which helps me sort things out. I kind of think of it this way: the brain is a whole bunch of highways. All thoughts, actions, even involuntary actions use these highways. Some roads open, some remain empty from not enough use. Some are used overwhelmingly. The roads that are used a lot are paved and traffic moves at a high speed. Maybe this time, you moving your arm allowed a different road to be taken. One that isn't as painful as the main road. Goes a little slower, but yet scenery is similar. The brain is amazing. Take it slow. It just might be the detour needed to be able to talk about hurtful things with less intense reactions.

 

[Ellabella44]

hmm now that you said that , its probably what she was doing... i ended up also hearing comments from one of my fragments .. ok we are fun at parties and whats next after shaking the hands out.. the hokey pokey? she said to not try to analyze it after i go home or try to do it anywhere but there.... said no problem dont want to do it again today lol but thought it was wierd enough to post as a what the ?