Sufferer Bonjour New Here

[Wondering_Loner]

I'm not sure how to start this. I've never been very good at introducing myself.

Well I was diagnosed with childhood ptsd a few months ago, not sure how many. I think 6 or 8? I'm 24 and male. I can't make friends really at all. I avoid people especially if they like me. I just can't handle being close to them. I'm a perv too and I hate it....

I have other symptoms too but they're too confusing to talk about. I can't calm myself down. I guess I am a fairly typical presentation from what I've read. I used to do a lot of art, but over the past year I just can't consistently bring myself to do it anymore. I tried to make money off it and that didn't work.

Dad burnt our house down when I was 7 and my life has been hard downhill ever since. I started therapy at moms suggestion and I freaked out in the family history segment. Since then I've been attending therapy usually twice a week.

I'm in the process of moving out of my moms and to Europe in a month. Which is exciting and scary. Thats pretty much where I'm at now.

 

[hodge]

Welcome, WL. That was a fine introduction. And it's nice to meet another artist.

 

[wabi-sabi]

Hi Wondering! moving is exciting and scary - for sure - hopefully you are handling it better than I have!

With your art...I know I was told that I should cook when I was actually still listening to experts (i.e. therapy) since I love it (I was a personal chef)...so, I would say try to create your art as often as possible. I know it was EXTREMELY hard for me at first to accept that cooking would help but I found out pretty quickly that it did. So, I wonder if your art may be the same way?

 

[ladee]

Welcome @Wondering_Loner ! Happy you have reached out and doing an introduction !!! Let's us get to know you a little... and we respect you needing to take your time to share...
Many people here to help and support you. I have been at this as many years as you are old !! And am still learning new ways to manage my symptoms.. so , a lot of hope here !!! And some very caring and supportive people for you to meet.... Hope to see you around as you get comfortable..

 

[Wondering_Loner]

Thanks for the replies.

Kind of funny I started cooking as part of my therapy too. I got a pasta press and everything. Mom says I always seem more here when cooking.

 

[wabi-sabi]

I'm definitely more here when I do. It was one key thing that saved me when I started cooking again.

 

[Wondering_Loner]

Thanks wabi sabi.

erm excuse my spelling I'm getting a little nervous again.

As for the art people are telling me to just take a break for a while. I went workaholic and collapsed after a while with it, but I also think I need to push myself forward again. I'm not sure which side of the fence I'm on with it.

 

[wabi-sabi]

well, I would say wait & decide but I'm not so sure that is a good idea since waiting to decide is a great way to avoid things. Maybe ask your therapist what he/she thinks?

 

[Friday]

I'm a perv too and I hate it....

What do you mean by this?

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Suzetig]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[intothelight]

@Wondering_Loner Welcome!

Leaving and going some place new is great, but are you going in "search of" or "running from" ? The things is, we can never escape ourselves so issues can't be left behind unless we put them down and walk away from them.