5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you, @RavenGirl & @Muttly :hug: for your kind comments about pain! Your caring words mean a LOT! Most of the time I ignore the aches and pains, but once in a while, more of the body hurts than not....for DAYS...

1. I HATE it when depression sets in for the day, (hopefully) for just one day.
2. Waiting to get sleep study done, AGAIN. Didn't have enough time to figure out titration pressures. (Averaged 30 "events" an hour on last test....had 64 per hour LAST night) I did the math. I stopped breathing every 9 SECONDS!?!
3. I DO want to live!!!
4. I am blessed even when I can't feel it.
5. Humidity drags the life outta me!!!

 

[Chiqui]

1.- My mother rang and told her I believe she doesn't love me. She said yes, I do, also to my partner, so he can remain me it. But I did not trust her.
2.- Is it because within the cult I was tought that my parents were evil and the root of all my problems? And I should hate them (as I did for many years)?
3.- If 2 is true, what a pitty, is it not? They are getting old and they could die without my love and care and viceversa :(:eek:
4.-I notice I have to make a new step on organizing labor weekdays and weekends, and do different things, like some leissure time, feeling I deserve them
5.- I have to be careful with senses isolation. I did for so long in my ascethic time, that now I do and don't notice. It is very bad for me :eek:, I go into paranoia :hungover:

 

[Lionheart]

I think I am blessed by much, esp. when I allow myself to see things as they are and not how I am afraid they might be.:cool:

I think I need to start eating healthier foods (fruits and veggies) more frequently. :brb:

I think I am too nice sometimes, :confused:....but, I also think that I must have done somebody some good on this journey. :cautious:...(or so I sincerely hope).

If wonder....if I am made from 'star stuff', if stars are actually made of 'soul-stuff'?:wideeyed:

 

[Heather]

Yesterday was extremely draining but got through it

Unfortunately there's more shit to come *sigh*

I don't want to do this/face this but I have no choice

My cat is soooo cute. Evil but cute.

Trying to hold it together

 

[Tinyflame]

I think, it really takes something else- a leap-, to put the pedal to the medal for putting in to reality things like trust, forgiveness, getting better; that is, not just lip service, and even if not believing it or fully convinced whole-heartedly doing it. I mean really 'doing' it, despite risk.

I think I have a little bird with a problem here- it's mostly sitting on the top of the patio umbrella stand chirping but shivering. :( Though it is able to fly-?

I feel massive anxiety, relative to this moment and long term. :( :cry:

Surely all 3 sisters couldn't be narcisists? :( Or at least one exhibiting traits that look like it but is not from that? :(

I feel discouraged and hopeless.

 

[Ronin]

I was tought that my parents were evil and the root of all my problems? And I should hate them

Even if they were, doesn't mean you can't get better / move on from that &

Should does not make have to, and does not make will. ;)
You're on the right track. You're aware it's just some past nonsense resurfacing, not a reality; even if that 'nonsense' is something you've lived by for so long. It's okay to keep that life & not listen to it.

 

[Anrish]

1. Thunderstorm over us.
2. Meet an old acquaintance, was okay.
3. Why can't people be honest and care only about their own reputation!?
4. Headache again.
5. Need something to eat.

 

[Ronin]

1. Cooking to shoo this stellar hours long mood.
2. Future is real. It exists. Tomorrow's real.
3. Tomorrow's real. Her eyes. Blue skies. That country over there. Blue skies.

 

[jaccat]

I got so excited about the fruits on my chilli plants ripening that I forgot to water them.
I can still use my tablet with excema gloves on (even if I have to punch the keys a bit). That's a surprise.
Between them, the ankle brace and the allergies I'm doing well.
Why are the hayfever sneezes so explosive?
I wonder if chilli's cure that?

 

[Ronin]

1. Sunbathing and dreams of painkillers.
2. Still very O_o about a friend & language.
3. Would be easier if I could articulate what's wrong, in person / speak at all.
4. So back to acts of courage and finding how.
5. Still want/need to find at least one g'damn hotline to call, instead of the two I have in the past few years that were f*ck all use.
It's not even optimism, trying it again if it didn't work, that's just plain despair and stupidity. Sigh. So here & sib site for reach out, some more.

 

[intothelight]

Need to keep working on the peaceful, kinder, gentler approach to life.

Ultrasound of the baby was absolutely amazing and still walking in the glow of "life can be so good".

Wishing I could pick up the phone and talk to my cousin about yesterday, but the realization she isn't here got more real.

Need a mani/pedi as my mishaps with the hammer didn't do the gels any good.

Newfs make even their dog dishes a hairy mess. :cautious:

 

[Ironlady]

Thank you @Ironlady because had productive a.m. then slump, then read your post a...

Aww.. I'm glad that was helpful to you. <3