Shutting out my t

[Edemul]

I used to trust my therapist. Now I’ve shut her out. I don’t know why. I really don’t want to continue therapy anymore.

Has anyone else gone through this? Do I push through it or do something else? I just can’t talk to her anymore.

 

[Oza]

I just can’t talk to her anymore.

Do you know why? Maybe you are getting close to something you don't want to face so getting away from here sounds like a way to not have to deal with it?

 

[Edemul]

I’m not sure @Oza cuz I don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere. I think in a lot of ways I’m worse than I was before. It’s like I can’t see an end anymore, like I’m spinning my wheels.

 

[Fifuh]

I think in a lot of ways I’m worse than I was before.

yeaaaa... sadly thats how it works. You get worse before you get better. Before dumping your T how about discussing this with her? she maybe able to explain how the process goes, figure out what is a "normal" reaction and perhaps tweak counseling to incorporate these feelings.

 

[Bapamus]

What kind of therapist is she?

What kind of therapy are you doing?

Can't comment until I know these two things!

 

[Edemul]

You get worse before you get better.

I’ve heard that before, but for how long?:banghead:
I know she’s aware of it, but I just can talk about it for some reason. She doesn’t respond a lot when I do tell her stuff, so sometimes I don’t even bother. I know she takes it in, but she never CLUES me in.:(

 

[Edemul]

@Bapamus she does EMDR and who knows what else. She doesn’t tell me.

 

[Ruja]

I have been there myself, sometimes ones self gets burned out on therapy that it ends up being a dreaded chore, and often unproductive. For me, I told my T back then I needed to take a break, unless you in crisis most T's will accept that and wait for you to resume by making a next appointment one day.

Maybe U just need to take a break so you can collect your thoughts.

I tried this once with my current T but I was in Crisis and had S/I. She sent the sheriff to do a safety check on me.

As I said conditions need to be right for pausing therapy to be seen as a good thing.

 

[Uhe]

Are you actually doing EMDR?

Please describe how sessions go...

Really, unless someone can understand what your therapy looks like, it's impossible to comment on whether you should stay in therapy or not as some styles are exactly what you describe but others aren't supposed to be.

 

[Fifuh]

Try writing down what you want to tell her and have her read it. I have to do that occasionally because if I'm stressed I walk in the door and everything falls right out of my brain. I end up kind of babbling.

 

[Edemul]

@Fifuh I can somewhat write it down, but I can give it to her to read. When she reads things I’ve written she doesn’t discuss it, she just reads it. This is painful.

 

[Edemul]

Are you actually doing EMDR?

Please describe how sessions go...

Really, unless someone can understand what your therapy...

Yes, I do EMDR and other times I don’t and I just talk. But, I don’t want to talk to her anymore. I don’t have a clue when I will ever be done.
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