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So... I am leaning towards the rape not being my fault and would be feeling angry AT HIM if I could feel right now. (Used to be angry at me)
So now I have these questions lingering in my mind...
Was it me?
Why does your current wife look like me 25 years later?
Do you hate all women or just me?
Did you think it was a game?
When I undressed for you did you think that I chose to do that?
When my body reacted to your touch, did you consider that a yes?
When I didn’t make a sound, did you consider that consent?
Did you view my efforts to escape as me saying “no?”
When you laughed at me, was that because you thought we were playing a game?
When I went from puppet to trying to resist again, did you see that as a “no?”
When I completely gave up, what was the point of smacking my face or choking me yet again?
When you said that stuff afterwards is that proof that you thought it was consensual?
What was your thoughts on the silent tears?
Did you seriously black out like you said you did?
When you were nice a month later and I was late, what were your real thoughts?
Did you and B plan that second event?
Why were you “nice” that time?
Any thoughts, forum? Any questions for your rapist? Sorry if this is too much, I just don’t know how else to process this right now.
So now I have these questions lingering in my mind...
Was it me?
Why does your current wife look like me 25 years later?
Do you hate all women or just me?
Did you think it was a game?
When I undressed for you did you think that I chose to do that?
When my body reacted to your touch, did you consider that a yes?
When I didn’t make a sound, did you consider that consent?
Did you view my efforts to escape as me saying “no?”
When you laughed at me, was that because you thought we were playing a game?
When I went from puppet to trying to resist again, did you see that as a “no?”
When I completely gave up, what was the point of smacking my face or choking me yet again?
When you said that stuff afterwards is that proof that you thought it was consensual?
What was your thoughts on the silent tears?
Did you seriously black out like you said you did?
When you were nice a month later and I was late, what were your real thoughts?
Did you and B plan that second event?
Why were you “nice” that time?
Any thoughts, forum? Any questions for your rapist? Sorry if this is too much, I just don’t know how else to process this right now.