I chose to live

[419can.dance]

I chose to live.
I made it through the night.
I drove 4 hours looking for the perfect spot.
Even visited “my spot”

I chose to live.
I turned my car around.
Drove a little more.
Grabbed coffee. “They remembered my name”

I chose to live.
Drove myself to the hospital.
Fast pass to the psych hall.
Took the emergency room torture.

I chose to live.
Best choice I have ever made.

 

[Joan]

well done!

 

[ladee]

Great choice !!

 

[419can.dance]

Great choice !!

Thank you! It was the hardest decision of my LIFE! I smell where I need to be!

 

[ladee]

And a major victory FOR your life!!! We are here , sitting with you, you are not alone.

 

[Deleted member 40995]

Very uplifting post, so full of strength :hug:

 

[419can.dance]

Very uplifting post, so full of strength :hug:

Thank you love! It has been a very long time. An long time coming. Healing isn’t easy but these moments are pivotal to recovery.

 

[419can.dance]

well done!

Straight up rocking life from here out!

 

[419can.dance]

I know this is a VERY uplifting post. And, can be discouraging to those that are NOT here YET! I have fought for this moment of clarity. Fought and worked my ass off just to see the light. Be strong in your battle. As my son said just last week.

“A bat must fall innorder to fly.”

 

[Gs172003]

I chose to live.
I made it through the night.
I drove 4 hours looking for the perfect spot.
Eve...

I am so glad

 

[Still Standing]

I just read your post. Oh my goodness! What you expressed brought tears to my eyes..and that is a big deal! Just yesterday, as I was stopping at a red light, while driving, I was flooded with the "S" word and with it came the thought of driving over a cliff!!! I HATE this. I was feeling fine and suddenly got slammed with suicide...again. This time, like you, too a lesser degree, I just focused on the here and now and kept driving without looking for my cliff. The decision to live is hard. But when push comes to shove, I WANT to live. You wrote beautifully, in a few short sentences, the struggle of overcoming. Thanks. I am going to copy your poem so it will be a reminder to chose LIFE!

 

[Zach Harris]

"Best choice I have ever made." - that's true, it's the best and the most important choice.