Thanks for mentioning this LisaMarie. No, I didn't see your posting.
Dissociation and depersonalization are pretty standard routines with trauma - so nothing weird about that really. I used super sour candies (Warheads) to pull me out of dissociation. Wasn't fun. Careful of teeth if you do this. Brush often. This stuff is caustic.
As far as sleep goes, I started putting together some essential oil blends and listening to binaural beats on youtube. Helped me tons.
Blend I used for essential oils for sleep was lemon, lavender and peppermint if you are interested at all. Did me and a bunch of people I know way better than sleeping pills. Just a suggestion.
Absolutely you are not crazy. This is trauma and there is a logic to trauma. That's why a good therapist is so helpful. They can ground and guide you towards wellness. With trauma, from my experience, your nervous system.mind.body are trying to process what happened to you.
If you can, look up wellness tools on the internet. Focusing on the dysfunction alone that you are feeling isn't a balanced approach based on my experience. Wellness tools help people notice an awareness of differing stages of their trauma and how it affects them. It allows them to engineer their lives rather than have their lives be taken over.
I use WRAP *Wellness Recovery Action Plan* which is from the Copeland Centre in California. I live in Canada. Here is a link that I found that will give you a better understanding of how WRAP can help. WRAP (the course with a facilitator) is free. Maybe look at agencies for mental health in your area and see if these courses are available. In the meanwhile, here is a slimmed down manual, if you are interested. Perhaps you and one of your therapists can take a look at it?
https://namiaustin.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/09/Developing-a-WRAP-Plan.pdf
Also, if you have a supporter, there is a Family WRAP course as well that takes supporters into consideration. I believe it is free as well. It is just super hard to find these courses here in Canada and you have to be half or three quarters dead to get access to them. I think it is easier in the US and UK to get access to the course. If you are interested.
Keep up the faith. There is a logic to trauma. Try to remember that when you are feeling crazy.
I hope this was some form of help to you.
I hobbled along for a while, but ultimately I crashed completely. I hate to say that and please don't assume that you will crash as well. I have special circumstances that went on for just about 3 years that really did me in.
No. People who have not gone through anything like this - from my experience - absolutely couldn't wrap their heads around what was happening to me. A few people stayed but most just stuck their noses up i the air, called me crazy or some facsimile thereof, and went on with their lives. My social circle now involves trauma affected people.
Ah, okay. And you also have a good group of therapists/mentors I see, which is good. What advice are they giving you?
I couldn't watch TV, movies, read newspapers, books. I actually couldn't concentrate on much of anything to be honest.
Dissociation and depersonalization are pretty standard routines with trauma - so nothing weird about that really. I used super sour candies (Warheads) to pull me out of dissociation. Wasn't fun. Careful of teeth if you do this. Brush often. This stuff is caustic.
As far as sleep goes, I started putting together some essential oil blends and listening to binaural beats on youtube. Helped me tons.
Blend I used for essential oils for sleep was lemon, lavender and peppermint if you are interested at all. Did me and a bunch of people I know way better than sleeping pills. Just a suggestion.
Absolutely you are not crazy. This is trauma and there is a logic to trauma. That's why a good therapist is so helpful. They can ground and guide you towards wellness. With trauma, from my experience, your nervous system.mind.body are trying to process what happened to you.
If you can, look up wellness tools on the internet. Focusing on the dysfunction alone that you are feeling isn't a balanced approach based on my experience. Wellness tools help people notice an awareness of differing stages of their trauma and how it affects them. It allows them to engineer their lives rather than have their lives be taken over.
I use WRAP *Wellness Recovery Action Plan* which is from the Copeland Centre in California. I live in Canada. Here is a link that I found that will give you a better understanding of how WRAP can help. WRAP (the course with a facilitator) is free. Maybe look at agencies for mental health in your area and see if these courses are available. In the meanwhile, here is a slimmed down manual, if you are interested. Perhaps you and one of your therapists can take a look at it?
https://namiaustin.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/09/Developing-a-WRAP-Plan.pdf
Also, if you have a supporter, there is a Family WRAP course as well that takes supporters into consideration. I believe it is free as well. It is just super hard to find these courses here in Canada and you have to be half or three quarters dead to get access to them. I think it is easier in the US and UK to get access to the course. If you are interested.
Keep up the faith. There is a logic to trauma. Try to remember that when you are feeling crazy.
I hope this was some form of help to you.
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