Everything has continued to get worse.

[Wonder Woman]

Yeah ive been forced inpatient 6 times by the cops here and then done residential treatment 4 times in the last 2 years. Usually I just come out worse

I'm sorry you aren't finding the support you need. If you find your current therapist unhelpful, perhaps you might want to consider getting a different one.

Yes, I agree residential programs generally do more harm than good. Unless you are suicidal, I think they save lives. Or unless you can afford one of those fancy private, resort type places that specializes in trauma recovery.

 

[Sky]

Hi, Sky.

I'm sorry about the abuse you've suffered, and I'm sorry people are treating you poorly on the internet. I wish you didn't have to go through this. I wish I could take away the hurt and make your struggle disappear.

Sometimes, when getting through five minutes feels like a full day of heartache, I go outside. I breath in the fresh air, and I watch the birds, butterflies, squirrels, any small creatures I can find. I lose myself in their activites. I don't know, but maybe this could be helpful for you, too.

Often, I find people too difficult to be around, but being around animals seems to help me.

I hope getting through this difficult time becomes easier for you.

I'm sending thoughts of comfort, peace, friendship, and healing.

Thank you so much, nature does help me a bit if I hyperfocus on something simple like a rock or leaf and look at the intricate details

 

[Wonder Woman]

Thank you so much, nature does help me a bit if I hyperfocus on something simple like a rock or leaf and look at the intricate details

That sounds like a good place to start, then. I don't know if you've ever tried your hand at art. Maybe you would find it easier to focus, if you were to sketch the patterns you find in nature, such as the veins in a leaf. Just a thought.

Or even find some leaves, place a piece of paper over each, rub a crayon length-wise over it. Then you'll have the impression of the leaves on paper you can keep with you.