Want To Quit Therapy

[OKRADLAK]

..........but I am not gonna quit!!

I am at one of those blocks. This is a new T and I like her, but I am tired of going and and going.

This is a good T but the therapy is not really helpful because I no longer live near a place that does the kind of therapy that works on me. So she is kind and nice, but I am spinning tires again.

I am telling her things I have never told anyone, so I am doing my part. And doing the journal just as she asked, but I feel so empty and it feels so meaningless!

Just wanted to put that out there.......how have you all kept the motivation to go?

 

[Nighthawk]

I fight this challenge almost weekly. On a rare occasion I actually want to go:eek: As my TT said once if it was stuff that i could chat with a friend over coffee he would not expect me in his office ever... LOL. I know how hard it is but I make my car drive me there and then I sit there and am at times so mad that I am the way i am. I make myself go because I need to learn skills to cope better. To try and make some sense of the muck in my head even though I don't like my thought prossess. He makes me aware of some of the nonsense so that i can see it. That is way more than I had before I went.

I fear his abandonment every time I go and I wonder why he sees me. My big question WHY AM I LIKE THIS well duh. Ok I am more than likely rambling at this point but therapy is not easy if I were you I would pat myself on the back and tell yourself you are doing a good job because you went...

Now I guess I have to try and do the same for myself:cautious:

NH

 

[SimplyComplex]

:tup: good for you for not quitting. Just keep working on it. It might take time to get things to feel like they are moving. Did you talk to your T about what has worked with you in the past?

I never want to go to therapy...yet I really look forward to it. Go figure. I even like my therapist well enough...I mean, it isn't like I know her but we get along well and she is nice to me. Very reliable thus far. And I have made tons of progress. But part of me hates to go. So...ya know...its like anything else good for us that we hate.

 

[Heather]

I'm with you on that one OKRADLAK I want to quit too:p UGH! I hate therapy! Yuck Blah Bleck.... Especially these days.

 

[Zemi]

Hi, well done for not quitting! :) I remember a week or so ago you were mentioning ending things with one T; is this the one you wanted to end with who was still fairly new or a totally new person? and if it is the new person, maybe that's part of it? That you are adjusting to having to "break in" someone else and start again and all that comes with that. That would certainly be draining in itself as well as the going, going you mentioned and if you know this kind of therapy isn't helpful it would add stress as well. Curious about what kind you find is helpful and how different this sort is? Seems like you are asking a lot from yourself so maybe as well as wondering about motivation; just acknowledging how much you are doing will help a little. For me the motivation is I want things to be different and better, which I know in my mind but my feelings and thoughts don't always agree with that motivation so then it's just somehow putting one foot in front of the other (who knew that could be so hard!).

 

[Srain]

Good for you for going. :tup: It's not easy going when you don't want to and you feel like "for what??" This is intense stuff and sometimes when it slows I don't want to go.

When I've felt like that my motivation is lagging I will go in and ask that question specifically. I'm paying, it's my responsibility for it so I might as well find out what direction we are going and own up to the fact this is how I'm feeling. This is the conversation I have with myself. It's part of my therapy too and it's important to let my tdoc know every inch of the way how all of this is effecting me. When I let her know we were able to find out what was going on with me and get past it, because there was something going on that was important.

I think you are doing a great job!

Rain

 

[OKRADLAK]

Thank you, friends, for your replies!

Yes, Zemi, same therapist She is so focused and is helping me a lot which is why I hate the way I sometimes have a hard time getting motivated. She is very motivating, might I add, so I am actually improving.

So, No, I am not quitting, but of course slam myself for getting into these ruts where staring out the window seems like a good life plan. :eek:

Therapy=hard work=life changes=scary. I guess that is it in a nutshell. But look at the other way:

No therapy=no changes=lie because life changes anyway=changes not in my control=despair=wasted life.

So, we all keep at it!!:)

I appreciate that we motivate each other here, because you know how massively moods can swing between sessions?? Oh my gosh, I would not even believe the same person could swing so much!!

 

[Heather]

staring out the window seems like a good life plan.

Keep your eyes on your own paper...... That's my life plan:p HA!