What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

I am stunned and relieved still? I am relieved? I feel like this big space has opened up to me for me or something? Or am I just procrastinating about my studies?

Anyway feel like sitting with, what is, a lot at the moment.
ms spock

 

[ms spock]

Okay I now have to go to an artist's talk which I would rather not go to but as I must I hope that it will be okay.

Yes still just sitting with it.

So hopeful it won't be boring. Concerned I might fall asleep.

 

[Lionheart]

I am stoked about the new house. I am anxious about the upcoming move on Saturday. I am happy about the quote I got for a brake job on my car. ;) Seriously, things have been going really good these past couple of days and I have not had a cfs flare-up or any ptsd issues...pleasantly surprised!!! I am back on Prazosin for nightmares and have been sleeping really well and this improves my overall mood. :D low stress = happy lion

Now I can say that although I am happy, I am still sad; my father is dying of cancer and my mentally ill brother wants to live with me and I can't take care of him because of my disability. So there is an undercurrent of sadness.:(
Still, I am grateful that my father is still alive and that my brother is in an assisted living home getting the health care that he needs.

 

[bluemoon]

- angry
- confused
- stubborn
I feel like I've been treading water, in shit my entire life .Trying to keep my head above water, whilst drowning in shit.
Lucky I can swim, ha, ha!
(thanx KP for the valuable insights that you afford :tup:)

 

[Sandra]

I'm pissed off with my massage therapist. She refused to treat me last week due to my swollen ankles....Now I also find out she isn't a registered therapist so I won't get my $20 back from insurance. So now I have to find another one.

 

[bluemoon]

Dagnammit! Why do PTSD sufferers give more than they can afford?
(& we're suppossed to be the volatile ones? WTF?)

 

[Srain]

((((((((Nie)))))))))(((((((((lawphotos)))))))))))(((((((((Sandra))))))))))((((((((((MsSpock)))))))))))

I feel better, more at ease, did my little "Rain Dance" to ensure safety for my husband's long day today and mine while he is gone. Migraine trying to return but the noise is subsiding, peace is coming to me.

 

[KP the nut]

(thanx KP for the valuable insights that you afford :tup:)

KP is now confused as she can't remember valuable insights :roflmao: but if my rambling helped, you are welcome.

I start my new job in 1 hour 10 mins and I am still sat in my dressing gown and haven't had breakfast. I feel my get up and go has got up and gone, except without me.

 

[intothelight]

Like I am drowning. All I can see is the "big" picture and it is overwhelming. I know what all has to be done, but I feel alone and responsible for everything. It is making me so frustrated. I keep trying to break it down into little pieces but the pieces keep connecting. Feel pressure, like a failure, want to run away, frustrated, angry at myself.....just complete runaway anxiety.

How do you "make up" almost two years of your life????????

 

[ms spock]

How do you "make up" almost two years of your life????????

Don't wait or try to make it up. Just chalk it up to experience.

I have lost most of my life because of the child abuse. Today is the only day we have to be in so be in it.

I don't mean to be abrupt or rude. I am struggling with what I lost and what I never had. I am trying not to have any more loss.

ms spock

 

[bluemoon]

KP is now confused as she can't remember valuable insights :roflmao: but if my rambling helped, you are welcome.

I start my new job in 1 hour 10 mins and I am still sat in my dressing gown and haven't had breakfast. I feel my get up and go has got up and gone, except without me.

Ty 4 rambling.

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((((((Intothelight)))))))))))))))

It's just PTSD panic trying to pull you down, don't let it, it's a lie, you don't have anything "to make up" for. You've been doing what you were suppose to do. You have. You have been there for those who needed you, nothing was lost, the feeling is just that ... a feeling. It will pass and you will know...it was just that.

Again, thank you.

peace and healing,
Rain