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[CindyLou]

I just signed up. Wanted to say hi. I found out I have ptsd 2 days ago after a lifetime of wondering what was wrong with me. I knew it was more than major depression.

 

[Sandra]

Welcome to the forum. Lots of good people and info here for you.

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Welcome to the Forum CindyLou,

There are many of us who lived through the agony of not figuring out what the reason for our agony is. I am one of them. I spent years in play therapy from age 9 until I graduated from high school. The therapist obviously knew as did my teachers who set up the play therapy through the child guidance therapy. However, I myself never received a diagnosis. I finally figured it out in September of 2004 when I attempted physical therapy to help with my balance. After the original assessment I developed full-fledged flashbacks. That is when I figured it out. From there all my memories (which I had never lost) began to reorganize themselves. Different triggers would trigger other flashbacks.

From the time I was an infant I would dissociate according to my mom, once she knew what that was. So at least I was able to have memories and validation for my experiences and finally symptoms as an adult. For me this has been extremely helpful.

Now with a wonderful therapist who is not going to give up on me, I really believe that I can become better. Because of the extent of my abuse and the severity of my symptoms the PTSD won't go away. Certain things that have always been a characteristic of mine e.g. not liking to be touched and the thought of relationships with other people will probably stay to some extent. However, I think I will be able to get a job at a University, like I had before the PTSD grew out of hand.

Best of luck on your PTSD journey!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum :) New journey in life.

 

[Martin Taylor]

Welcome. I found out at 56. We'll be ok.

 

[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum CindyLou. It sometimes takes time to figure out what we really have and the professionals have to do an awful lot of eliminating other possibilities, but glad that they managed to find what was really wrong. This is a safe place, take your time, read some posts, threads and/or articles. You will relate to other's stories.

 

[CindyLou]

Welcome to the Forum CindyLou,

There are many of us who lived through the agony of not figuring out what the reason for our agony is. I am one of them. I spent years in play therapy from age 9 until I graduated from high school. The therapist obviously knew as did my teachers who set up the play therapy through the child guidance therapy. However, I myself never received a diagnosis. I finally figured it out in September of 2004 when I attempted physical therapy to help with my balance. After the original assessment I developed full-fledged flashbacks. That is when I figured it out. From there all my memories (which I had never lost) began to reorganize themselves. Different triggers would trigger other flashbacks.

From the time I was an infant I would dissociate according to my mom, once she knew what that was. So at least I was able to have memories and validation for my experiences and finally symptoms as an adult. For me this has been extremely helpful.

Now with a wonderful therapist who is not going to give up on me, I really believe that I can become better. Because of the extent of my abuse and the severity of my symptoms the PTSD won't go away. Certain things that have always been a characteristic of mine e.g. not liking to be touched and the thought of relationships with other people will probably stay to some extent. However, I think I will be able to get a job at a University, like I had before the PTSD grew out of hand.

Best of luck on your PTSD journey!

Thank you so much. You will be in my prayers for that job. I am so frightened by all of this, My childhood was so bad and now I have ptsd and so many physical ailments that I am applying for social security disability soon. I just cannot function any longer and I am doing everything possible to destroy the one friendship that meant so much to me these last nine years and he has no idea that I am doing it. so sad..

 

[CindyLou]

Welcome to the forum CindyLou. It sometimes takes time to figure out what we really have and the professionals have to do an awful lot of eliminating other possibilities, but glad that they managed to find what was really wrong. This is a safe place, take your time, read some posts, threads and/or articles. You will relate to other's stories.

Thank you. It will take time for me to get involved here. I have such trust issues. God Bless you

 

[Martin Taylor]

Well, I've been here for about 6 months and have never been disrespected. I think it's safe.

 

[a3a2]

Welcome, Cindy. I can relate well to knowing something was wrong, but not knowing what. For me, the diagnosis came as a relief. With therapy, things have improved a lot for me. I am sure it will for you as well. Blessings on your journey, and welcome to the forum.

 

[doglover]

Welcome, Cindy! I understand trust issues. You're likely to find an open, warm, supportive community here. Go at your own pace. We're here for you. This is a beautiful place to heal.

 

[CraftyCath]

Welcome to the Forum CindyLou,

As was said above, this is a very safe, non-judgmental place. I spent my life wondering what was wrong with me and being miss-diagnosed, I'm happier now that I know it is PTSD and I can finally head towards healing.