Sufferer Ptsd, Mdd, And Major Grudge Holder...lol Im Working On It...

[candace444]

I have been on depakote for two years. It has definitely helped with the physical anxious panicky attacks, but I can't miss a dose, or they raise their ugly head. I still cry most of the time and have not worked in over 2 years and have cut off almost everyone I know.

I've suffered abuse as a child and as a young adult. My mother is my biggest trigger, though I am just now learning of triggers. My depakote levels have never been tested, scary and I wonder if I will ever be strong enough to live my life without drugs, but I'm not expecting it.

I would love to talk to someone else who suffers with ptsd and has overcome. Contact me if you have and would like to talk. Also looking for support groups in my area, not online, I'm too impatient lol. At any rate, I am looking forward to any help I may be able to get/give.

Thank you

 

[BigBear]

Hi Candace,

Anything you write here will be read. We'll be supportive. We'll back and forth with you. I understand that you are impatient, but try it!

You are welcome and accepted here!

Bear

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

There is a great support system here. There is lots to read and great information.

I wonder if I will ever be strong enough to live my life without drugs....but I'm not expecting it....

Do not think of needing medication as a weakness. That is negative thinking and will not help you heal. I hope you understand what I mean. I take a few medications, and without them I could not attend school. I think of them as helping me recover, and build a solid life.

Take care.

 

[candace444]

You are welcome and accepted here!

Ty that means a lot....

 

[candace444]

I read Anthony's pdf, enlightning, but scary. I see my bf of four years having some symptoms of secondary ptsd from living with me. My best friend says she loves me, but that I am very hard to love. I'm afraid he will get tired of me and leave.

I usually leave and want too myself, but I can't keep running and I can't keep pushing everyone away. Mainly cause I want them all lol. I'm just soooo on alert and speak my mind at any time at any place. Which I am getting better at the older I get. I am almost 40 now, ugh, stressor there all in itself. What a mess this is.

 

[candace444]

Do not think of needing medication as a weakness.

I'm trying not too.