I'm in a mixed mood tonight.
I feel guilty for becoming overwhelmed at the Victorian Fair I went to. I went on a mini bus with the WI. At first it was fine, very busy, big crowds around the stalls. Then, the noise from a funfair, and flashing lights (funfair and emergency vehicles), pounding music and people everywhere. I felt like I couldn't escape and was trapped in the noise.
I found a cafe, bought a coffee and sent a text to a couple of forum friends. Bless them they responded immediately. One phoned but the noise was so great we couldn't hear one another. I had my coffee and practised grounding and took deep breaths. I had 2 hours to wait for the bus back.
I'm proud I took the decision to leave the market totally. Once away, I found a pub, bought myself a small glass of white wine and was able to calm down. I phoned my friends and explained that I was safe. Later some of the other women from the mini bus came in as well, so I joined them until it was time to come home.
Now I feel very tired. Tomorrow is a busy day as well, but for that I will have H at my side.
I am relieved to be home.