What Made You Angry Today?

[BlackbirdSinging]

People. And hints. I mean come on. I have PTSD and I REALLY wish that people would be more direct with me and not drop hints. When I think I see a hint my hypervigilance goes into overdrive. Like it is right now. It makes me so anxious. Like right now. Why can't people just say what they have to?

I mean I know my PTSD is my responsibility and my reactions are my responsibility too. But when they KNOW I have PTSD do they REALLY have to take my emotions on a ride? I feel like a puppet. Other people can just set me off. It's like almost being at the mercy of other people all the time to NOT say or do things that trigger me. And that part of triggers is something that I really really really really hate.

 

[Changing4Best]

Someone left me no option to continue doing something that made me very happy earlier today. That someone is in a position of authority. So I am stuck with a difficult situation and no way to solve it.

Furthermore, I told the person that their actions had made it very difficult for me to do something that really would be in their best interest.

The reply was a cold order to abide by the rules and a cancelling out of what I had done.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I got angry at my husband with dementia and lost my temper and yelled at him and really hurt his feelings. He brought in the bills from the mailbox and opened them all up and mixed them up instead of handing them to me which made it much harder on me. I feel like a heel. I know he is doing his very best in his confused and troubled world. I really feel bad. Our time together is precious and he is fading so fast. I think I having a hard day and everything is getting to me.

 

[ms spock]

I got angry because someone made a decision and then expected it to me be my decision as well. Not going to happen.

 

[amethist]

People who will not take no for an answer.

 

[Britt.f7]

Finding out that we do not have insurance for the house or cars since October. There was an apparent misunderstanding and a lack of payment. I'm mad at ourselves but I'm also mad that the agency that we've been with for almost 18 years did not try to contact us to see what was up. I think they had that right after so many years. Now we are in a scramble to get some insurance. Just wonderful!

 

[ms spock]

That waking up was such a struggle today.

 

[zaniara]

The thought about how that monster my father was and I guess still is(even though I have no contact with him today) nearly killed me, and then just tried to clean the mess up and hide the evidence, instead of getting me medical care- and in that jeopardizing my life even more. The thought of how cold and indifferent he was, and how small that child I was really was and how much pain she went through and how lonely she was.. It makes me angry. (And sad. Among other things.)

 

[Crow]

I'm pissed off at this spiral of healing. Just when I know I’m done with an issue, here it comes again stronger than ever. It’s like nothing bad ever ends.

 

[Core]

That even in the society we live in today, so many people are raped, and so many children are abused. It's enraging.

 

[KP the nut]

I am so angry that Hubby and I were woken up at 3.10am this morning. Our phone was ringing, we both woke with a start. I went into high alert anxious mode, worring about my girls who live away from home.

We bounded out of bed. Only to hear the answer phone kick in and it was, wait for this. An automated message from a store, telling me that my order was ready for collection.

I was ready to do bodily harm, firstly they phone in the middle of the night causing panic, secondly, I'd already collected the order 2 days previously then I couldn't get back to sleep. Aaaaarrrrggggghhhhhh.

 

[ms spock]

That I have to do so much work to heal when none of it was my fault. I was just a child.

That child abuse is such a large contributing factor to mental illness. I discussed this with my psychriatrist on Tuesday.