I'm angry about how some people act towards me and speak to me if they know nobody's watching. For the most part, some healthcare people who I have had to deal with about addiction or psychiatric problems. It's a mix of disgust and this feigned toughness that says, "You're less than nothing, and don't even THINK about trying to get away with anything, with ME".
I'm amazed at how some of these "professionals" have behaved toward me; so full of contempt when nobody's looking. I moved into a new area a year ago and I'm going to need a new PCP as well as some other healthcare providers, and I am never going to tell anyone again that I had a problem with pain pills.
I think it also reminds me of how my father acted - often he'd wait until nobody was looking to sneer at me, or waited til my mother was not around to confine me to the basement and make me afraid he was going to kill me, with that awful, crazy, evil look in his eyes.
