What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[p-no]

I feel sick and alone and lonely and sorry for myself, some compassion with myself, anger at that darn cold, impatient, pi**ed off. Going to feel sick to my stomach for the next few hours due to antibiotics.

 

[ms spock]

I feel really sorry for myself. I feel very distressed. I feel needy and desperate. I feel like I have wasted my life.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm confused. I think I might have had a panic attack yesterday? It wasn't like the others I've had before- much less intense but it lasted a lot longer, felt almost like the beginning of a bad flu? Not sure what to think, but I'm feeling better today.

 

[ms spock]

I guess it can happen, I just meant that having that reaction when someone is distressed, is not the 'normal' way a person would respond to someone in distress, that's all.

I am really tired but my recollection is that she emotionally attacked you? I have noticed that some people attack to try to snap people out of the emotion. But it is not a helpful reaction to the distressed person.

Thanks, I just don't think I was ready to reflect on it at that time. I was more still recovering from the upset of the attack from her, and just wanted to express where I was at emotionally.

That is fair enough.

 

[therisa]

Sore, as my right ankle is very slowly healing from spraining it, twice, in the past 4 weeks. Tired, because I can't find a comfortable position to sleep, at night. Anxious, but not sure, why. As I have enough food and litter, for my cats, for the next few months and food for myself. Scared, as I want to go to a peer-support group, tomorrow, but not ready to deal with the need to take transit (the subway), during rush hour, which will be packed with noisy teenagers, just getting out of school.

 

[GRANOLA]

I'm feeling really crappy, angry, shakey, sick, vision sucks, head hurts. I can handle the anxiety. It's the nightmares and the wanting to end everything, that scares me. Trying to get into a psyciatrist to get my meds. changed, ongoing for the last few weeks. I live 100 miles from any professional who can do anything. The gp doesn't have enough guts to try something anything new.

I have a 20 year old daughter and husband of 27 years, it doesn't seem fair to them. It's been just over four years since our 18 year old son was killed. His death triggered old trauma from paramedic days. I don't think I can keep going anymore. I want out, I don't want to do this anymore. Everyone would be better off without me!

The biggest thing that stops me, I feel sorry for the person/ paramedic who finds me. I know what thats like. It needs to be neat and tidy, not a place where family and friends frequent.
I wouldn't want to ruin places for them.

I only really speak to one friend who helps me through things. I'm grateful for everthing that she has done. I try to only contact her when I'm at rock bottom, I hate bothering her.

I'm sure Everyone would be better off without me.

 

[Britt.f7]

@GRANOLA In reality they wouldn't be better off without you. It's just a mood that will pass, not as quickly as we would like, but it does pass. One thing that stuck in my mind when I was feeling like you is that children of suicidal parent's are more likely to do so. I have two boys that I wouldn't want to hurt. It took me a long time to realize they really wouldn't be better off without me. I hope you find the help you need or that your gp comes around.

 

[Britt.f7]

Today I jumped out of bed and went to the gym. Albeit for only ten minutes, but, usually I get up, take care of the dogs, then sit down to the computer with my coffee. It feel somewhat liberated and motivated. Unusual, but a good unusual.

 

[goingonhope]

Right now, I'm definitely feeling fearful and now nauseas, very much as if I need to vomit to feel somewhat improved, yet not needing to.

 

[Chincho]

I feel like I did when I was first diagnosed. All my PTSD symptoms are back. I remembered something from my childhood that triggered me really bad.

My head knows it will pass, but the rest of me is not so sure.

 

[Britt.f7]

I woke up from my nap not feeling as energetic and happy as when I woke up this morning. Maybe I just need to wake up more. I want the feeling I had this morning, not this one.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling stressed and annoyed at myself for how pathetic I have been and how I have been giving into stuff.