What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[uphillbattle]

I am brand new....

I feel.....
embarrassed
Lonely
Hopeless
Scared
Hyper sensitive

I feel like I need an ear.....

 

[Philippa]

Feeling dazed, confused. Unsure. Disbelieved, self-doubting, just got told I was 'derailing by entitlement' on a thread about racism, by sharing a story of reverse racism (as I saw it).

I had two people tell me that basically I cannot compare my story of being punched in the face by an aboriginal girl when I was 18 and she was 12, with the experiences of the aboriginal people and the everyday racism they tackle!

I was not saying my experience was more important, or butting in on someone else sharing their story, so I'm honestly confused and bewildered at the irony of being told to research 'derailing for dummies', when the behaviour that is set out in the article was more like what the people threw at me, not the other way around? Hence the confusion.

I feel brow beaten, bullied somewhat. Still processing...I felt furious earlier...like REALLY furious.I even talked myself out of the story being racially motivated, as did the posters, who didn't believe me and told me I was acting 'entitled' as a white person!

Now I can see that I'm going to be perceived by this woman who started the thread as "not an ally" for her feminist cause to challenge the distorted viewpoint of the 'privileged' masses. Right now, not a f*ck I could give. I feel unheard, judged and diminished.

 

[franciemarnie]

I fell asleep by 2 a.m. and woke up at 8. Joy!! I miss the freshness of a new day in the morning when I sleep late because I couldn't fall asleep until late the night before. Reminds me of drug days though Ive been clean 13 years. Happy today. Still tired of course but oh the feeling of deep sleep!

 

[Spiderallis]

I am brand new....I feel like I need an ear.....

Welcome uphillbattle, hope the forums help you as much as they have me.

Thus far, my mind is doing fairly well today. My body is not, particularly legs/knees. My new insurance just kicked in, so my goal for the week is to schedule a visit to a better doctor- I hated the MD my last plan sent me to, but it was only temporary so I tolerated it. I'm giddy about all the things that are covered now, like finding out why things hurt instead of just taking pills for the pain. That might mean figuring out how to make things stop hurting! I'd do a happy-dance if it didn't hurt.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel strong, vital, free, tranquil, and blessed.

The weather is awesome here today. The sun is shining, the temp is in the low 70's, the birds are singing, the cat is sleeping in the open window, music is pouring from the stereo speakers, and I am just about as relaxed as I have ever been without falling asleep.:whistling::p:joyful::playful: *(I am feeling well rested too, thanks to the sleep apnea treatment).

Most of all, I am enjoying the culmination of years of healing work on my traumas, so that I feel much more complete, whole, and healed than ever before. What more could I ask for?

Lots of healing hugs to all who are suffering and/or struggling today,
From my heart to yours, peace and love,
:hug::inlove::angelic::inlove::hug:
Lion

 

[Llith]

Feeling rather pathetic and confused. Sorry for my poor boyfriend who can sense I am rather aloft and miles away. Glad hes putting up with it though, I am not sure how to break it. Just got in from work and reached for a bottle of wine... so all together not good... -_-

 

[Britt.f7]

Almost in tears. We received a letter regarding my son's excessive absences. He is in deep trouble. We are going to cover some, but can not cover all. We don't have to cover all, but it would help with doctor's excuses. He's 18 and graduating this year, but if he misses anymore we could be brought in with child services. I'm so stressed over this. He knows how his father and I feel but try to make a 200 lb man do something he doesn't want to do. They think they have the world by the horns. He doesn't. He thinks he is immune to trouble. He isn't. I'm soooo glad the other son doesn't play the I'm sick card. I don't think he's missed school once this year. Driving me crazy. I took some extra medicine to help me sleep. I really shouldn't have.

 

[Philippa]

I feel like a dickhead. Am I pathetic for sharing a story that I thought was related to racism, but can't prove it? I hate debating. I really really am not into debating and I don't know why I even bother participating in them. I'm not an academic and I don't want to be. Still tired, need more sleep.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Feeling pretty good. I took a long nap today because it is cold and raining outside and it is so cozy under a blanket.
All is well in my world,

Britt, my heart goes out to you. I sure hope they do not call child protective services. I am sure there is a way to resolve this situation with your son. Hugs and prayers if that is ok.

 

[Philippa]

Feeling calm, a bit chilly, not warm enough quite, content from what I've eaten, warmer now,diminished, a bit dreadful,invalidated, patronized, like an outsider once more. Just woke up from a nap as well, as it's cold weather outside here as well Gizmo. Didn't get much done today, but I needed to sleep in.

 

[ms spock]

Satisfied.

I did some good work today.

 

[Mercy]

Nostalgic. We are driving up to my brother's today to attend a Memorial Service for our last uncle. Remembering him as a caring human being and a good man is good for the wounded heart