@Jass_T
In your first post in this thread, I felt like you were describing ME.:wideeyed:
My passion for Science:geek::bookworm:...for learning in general:geek::bookworm:...is boundless, effervescent, and rarely shared by anyone I meet.
I also relate profoundly to your troubles dealing with humans:yuck::yuck::yuck::yuck::yuck:
Give me a library with no one in it:laugh: and I'm as happy as a pig in ......:laugh:
My gut feeling(which means precisely nothing;)) is that you will never enjoy teaching and deep down you already know that...you are just desperate to break out of this intolerable conundrum...and who wouldn't be?
I know you are suffering terribly.:(
I can feel it because I have been there and it is so exhausting, so heavy, so all-pervasive that you're just sick and tired of the lack of resolution to this issue...the pressure feels unbearable(how am I doin' so far?)
You know that working with humans greatly diminishes the intellectual joy you experience from dealing with the academic material and yet how do you find one without the grievous other?
There are a few people who have found resolution to these issue and many more others who end up languishing in a role they despise.
I'd be happy to brainstorm with you if you so desire.
Be well:bookworm::geek::happy: