Recent content by crazy8

I'm trying to figure out how I'm allowing myself to go back into these horrible emotional places over and over - crying easily and losing my shit. So, I'm writing about my experience this evening to you all. I already wrote in my journal, and that got me to this point. I'm extremely triggered...

CONGRATULATIONS This gives me so much hope! I am on medical deferral to start my Phd in fall 2015. I've gotten better but still have a way to go. Thanks for sharing.

Oh sweetie I'm sorry. Do you live in a cold or warm environment?

I get panic attacks too. Long, hot showers is the only thing I've found so far that can get me out of one. And you're not a junior. Or discredited. Each persons experience and history is unique and uniquely important.

Ha, ironically, I just found out today that I have a bit of Asperger's. The process you describe here of categorizing important things like God, love, forgiveness, thanks, etc in this way, @atthree, is like a brain party. I'm interested in the nature of the internal/emotional processing you...

What fabulous game concept. Thanks for sharing.

Thanks @Loner and @Snowwhite. It seems that my ability to engage in any sort of social interaction without being triggered is waning by the day; my PTSD is getting worse by the day, when I thought it couldn't get any worse. I sincerely appreciate your attempts and your responses here...

EDITED: I originally wrote that I was going to ask a moderator to delete this thread, but it appears that that is not allowed so I have edited this post... This thread is a constant trigger for me because individuals are continuing to tell me what I "should" be doing by giving unsolicited...

I'm sorry to hear about the pain that PTSD has caused you and your wife. From your descriptions, your wife's symptoms of misinterpreting emotional abuse are nearly identical in nature to my symptoms with PTSD in my relationship with my boyfriend. I can't see the truth, I constantly feel...

Hi @Snowwhite, as I told Abstract: I understand the science behind it and what you are saying; I conduct research on nutrition for a living. Perhaps I should not have posted this "vent," because hearing people tell me what I "should" do is a PTSD trigger for me. Its a deeply engrained and...

Thanks, @Loner, I think @Abstract hit the hammer on the nail here regarding the psychological component being more important. I do also have stomach issues from both psychological stress and from past eating disorders.

Sigh, this is where my control issues come in. I want to be the one in control of my eating, not a "schedule" that I "have" to follow regardless of how I feel. Thanks for helping me see that, @Abstract. Please don't bother trying to convince me to "just do it," because it will be better for me...

Great article!

As the title says, I just want to vent a little... Using marijuana has helped me put on weight - I was 112lbs at 5'7" (I'm female)...underweight. I was back in my healthy weight range last week, at 121 lbs...but just 4 days without using marijuana has resulted in a 2 lb weight loss. Today, I...