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Iam - I'll try to draw something, since I can't seem to make coherent sentences with words right now. I can't tell you how I feel, but it's not good. Hearing I'm an inspiration to you, made me smile. I wish I could feel as strong as I seem to appear. TLight - I think your rages are like my...

I'm sorry if this is really all over the place - I'm having problems with expressing myself properly tonight. I'll do my best. My pysch is suggesting I attempt to address the anger I feel about previous physical and sexual abuse in my childhood. I've always had a problem with expressing anger...

Thank you for sharing! :)

I've had that quite badly lately. I've always thought it was Vertigo, as I do suffer with it, but it also happens when I'm stressed and/or very, very tired. It was also a bad side effect of when I stopped my meds abruptly a few years back (stupid, I know). Anyway, no, you aren't alone. I get...

I'm on 100mg Sertraline (daily) and 160mg Propranolol (daily). Propranolol has helped a lot with the severity and frequency of the panic attacks, but they're creeping back in again. Sertraline seems to be keeping me from rock bottom, but has made my nightmares worse and very frequent as a side...

Thank you for sharing your story with me :smile: I think it's amazing that you were able to keep persisting with EMDR and that you found it helped you, even though you found it distressing. My T is away now for a week, so I won't see her until the second week in August. I guess half of me is...

Thank you so much for the responses here - it's comforting to know that I'm not alone in struggling with the attacks. Thank you also for the PM I recieved - I'll reply in a bit. The deep breathing techniques only work occasionaly for me. It depends how bad the attacks are too - if I'm...

I had 5 panic attacks yesterday, one of which was pretty bad. I can feel another coming on now and I'm trying so hard to keep as calm as I can. I'm on 160mg Propranolol and have been for a while now. I'd even go as far as to say it's been a bit of a wonder drug for me. I used to have at least 10...

I didn't have a positive experience with Citalopram - I felt it made me extremely ill and the panic attacks were unbearable. I've been on many, many different medications over the years and I know it takes time to find the right one that works. I hope the side effects go away for you. If you...

I wanted to say that it's amazing that you were able to leave your ex and file for a divorce. You have a lot of courage inside you. Welcome here! D/x

I've struggled with flashbacks/dissociation making me feel completely paralysed for a long time now, but it's gotten worse again now I'm doing EMDR. I feel like I'll try to say something and I can't find my voice. I can't make a sound. I'm saying it inside my head, my mouth is moving, but I...

Yeah, I've done that a lot. I've found it triggers the dissociation which has been a HUGE problem for me. I'll continue with trying to break past these barriers that are caused by the dissociation and see what happens. Thank you for your words, they mean more than I can explain. Thank you. D/x

I find it increasingly difficult as well. I think it's because I don't seem to feel safe anywhere and I'm extremely hyper-aware constantly. The 'safe place' I've been using lately is a dark room with candles all around. White fluffy pillows and feathers to keep me warm and comfy. I'm lying on...

That was an amazing post onlybygrace. I definately identify with it. Thank you for writing that. It's so difficult to stop thinking so negatively about myself. It's so hard to feel worth something when you feel like you're worth nothing. I pretend sometimes, but I don't think I ever really have...

That's amazing that you were able to tell your story in a book - I can imagine that's quite therapuetic to do and extremely brave. We're here for you. D/x