Recent content by GuyBloke

I'm not actually sure what's wrong, or what the end goal of therapy would be. I was going to sometimes last year, but then I quietly forgot about it, started working, etc. I'm concerned about the question: "What brings you to therapy?" I guess I've remembered recently a day we were all wasting...

Oh yeah, Hi @Lolab123, welcome and I hope you find what your looking for! That's me working on my basic courtesy :D

Its definitely not the place of some random guy on the internet to say what you should and shouldn't remember, but just over a year ago I had a night full staying awake mentally hating myself,(dwelling on bad memories, telling myself how shit I was) and something in my mind just threw the image...

Something that's surprised me is I started working again this week. No drama, no incessant questions or someone having a go at me if I did something wrong and gave us extra work to do. Its strangely calm out in the adult world. I guess the way we treat a child day in day out is the way they...

I've been re-reading some of the things I wrote at the beginning of the year. I'm the only person who uses my computer, but felt the need to hide the journal in a directory for a video game that I haven't played in years, so finding it again has been interesting. I realized bad things had...

The nightmares stopped about the time I left Secondary school, so did the feelings of "something" being in my room at night. I've just remembered, I remember when I was little, could have been 4 or 14 who knows, we were out on holiday with family friends, a wasp went through their car window...

My brother has had friends round this past month or two, he's high school aged and gov't lockdown means no school sometimes, hey ho. Two or three of these afternoons I swear I could hear moaning through where the wall meets the ceiling. I spent days now unable to sit down and write, play games...

I was always really scared of wasps, bees and hornets as a kid, even though (or probably because) I've never been stung before. Since I've been going out a lot more this year, because of lockdown of all things, I've just become used to the things buzzing past my ear without me ducking and...

I would add that it was a form of punishment, and definitely not a daily thing. But I remember how I treated most of the teacher and staff at school, where if something happened I would do anything but cooperate, because (you know that way someone might talk to a child they're trying to help) I...

I'm not sure if this belongs here, if not I'm happy to have it removed I remembered recently how when I was a child, ten and younger, I was often locked in my room. The door was openable and all but any time something happened it would be, I come home and I sit in my room for the afternoon and...

I keep reading people (here and elsewhere) saying that they don't remember their childhood. I've been trying to think about whether or not I can remember it, or if I should be able to remember a lot more than my name, where I went to school and what the school looked like. Also, I just...

Alongside everything else that's happened I've been dealing with this one memory: When I was little (9-11 years old maybe?) I was at my grandparents house for a few nights, I was brushing my teeth before going to bed and while brushing my grandma insisted on going to the toilet while I was in...

I'm considering it, but given that just remembering what little I know has caused these problems, like paranoia and wondering what everybody else knows, but I've cut contact with most everyone I went to school with and spent the two weeks I managed in college not socializing and being scared of...

I don't want to sound like I'm making the thread about me, but is your autoimmune disease connected to what you went through in the original post? I just ask because my Pituritary doesn't work properly which might be caused by my mental health as a teenager, and what you described sort of hit...

I think in my case I feel bad about claiming something was wrong because I couldn't remember what had happened. What doesn't help is that now I know that if I try to do so someone what I remember everyone in the dorm doing it would feel like I was being kicked in the balls, and I probably...