Recent content by intheprocess

Thanks very much, everyone. It will take time, but I have a good feeling about it. Lots of work.

Hi, working on something in a book my psychiatrist gave me, and came to the section in which I am to identify my core beliefs. Both he and my counselor advised me to go back to the beginning and not do that section yet. My core belief about myself is so bad I get depressed. Any advice on how one...

Cain, I am really sorry about all of this. I've lost my relationship with two siblings because I told what my father had done when I was growing up. This really, really bothered me. After several attempts, I have come to accept that I love them, but they are wrong, and I don't have a...

Thanks. I will have to reflect on your words, your experience.

Thanks, everyone. My big problem is I am stuck and feel like I can't let it go, in my mind. Why would I lie about incest? My other sister told them she had a couple of experiences. But I can't force them. My other sister, more advanced in therapy, is at a point she can accept everyone has their...

I poured my heart out to two siblings who don't believe me and invited them to join me in a session with my counselor. My brother skirted the issue but at least answered. My sister wanted to meet with my counselor first, which of course my counselor wouldn't do. Tonight I explained it's not...

I hope you can find therapy, a safe place. I am a survivor of long-term incest, stranger rape, multiple molestations. It took a long time before I would admit my father was a sick man. I've been hospitalized and am now in a medical study (major depression/PTSD, treatment resistant depression)...

I agree with Sweetleaf. It was definitely rape and I encourage you to both report it and go to a rape crisis center. Go to the rape crisis center first. I went there and they were great.

Thank you, everyone. Your posts have been very consoling. I am sorry for the things you have had to go through.

Thanks you have the right words and I appreciate it.

Asked my siblings, two of whom don't believe about the incest, if they'd meet with me and my counselor. I began by saying I miss being close to them. They said no. The sibling who experienced abuse cried. I am shut down and can't function.

Wow, this has been so good for me to read. I am older- 56- and got help about 8 years ago. Makes me better to know there are middle-aged/older people here. Sometimes it seems like the very young.

I can't cry. But through therapy and meds I now experience good emotions. So, some day maybe I'll let my guard down and cry. But self-harm, I was into it. Made me feel worse afterwards. Therapy is necessary.

I still have to say I wouldn't be here if it weren't for God. I've been lucky and regarding my relationship with God it's been good- no weird people or churches. I was hospitalized three times, was suicidal. In a medical study receiving an experimental drug. Horrific abuse since infancy...

I'm sorry you had those experiences.