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How do you deal with the hypervigilance and irritability? I've been without it for weeks at least, and suddenly it's come up today and it's really freaking me out. Any general advice on how to calm it down would be appreciated.

@IJustWant2beFree Thank you. I really appreciate that. I hope the best for you. In my case, I'm not worried about something that already happened. I am worried about something that /could/ happen, but more than likely will not. Every day this fear eats at me. Sometimes, every thought that I...

I'm sorry you're also in this mess, billie. I hope some good advice comes along for us as well. hehe

These damn ruminations... Every day, the cycling anxiety, worrying about losing my mind, it rips at me like claws against my burning, acidic stomach. And then there's also anger. When someone contradicts me I feel momentary anger - I want to retaliate and call them out. It's so silly, so...

Yes, you're right. It's definitely because I'm afraid there will be some part of me that I cannot control, that will be painful, that I will not be able to communicate to others. If it's out of control, what I communicate won't make sense to others because they won't function in that plane. And...

I've posted here before about my fear of insanity. The fear cycles - my first obsessive fear was about schizophrenia. Then I moved on to bipolar. Then borderline. I definitely don't have borderline, nor do I have schizophrenia. Who knows if either of those will come out someday (since there is...

saoirserylyn - I was adopted and abused also. This is the source of my PTSD. Because of our adoption experience, we not only have PTSD, but also attachment problems, namely fear of abandonment. Your relationship sounds a lot like my last one. I put a lot of pressure on my (very loving) partner...

@ill I guess I just am doubtful by nature and I assume the worst of many things. Also, going through the symptoms of personality disorders, I see that I have many of them (though I seem to lack the distinguishing characteristics). Complex PTSD, while it isn't an official diagnosis, serves to...

@ill Do you have PTSD/BPD, or both? I certainly do engage in black and white thinking when I reach that overwhelmed state. I don't believe it, and I have the insight to recognize that my girlfriend and I both possess many gradients of "good" and "bad," in the actions we take that validate/harm...

@SuperAnxietyGirl I think it would benefit to have faith in the process of life, that's for sure. I think I get this way when I don't eat right, too. I noticed that all I really had today was candy and coffee. My brain was freaking out. I had so much cycling shame, anxiety, and anger. I just...

I seem to have some emotional regulation issues. I don't self harm, but lately I've been having more and more urges to beat my face/head with my fists. I am depressed often, always alone in my bed, not showering, not cleaning up after myself. I have constant anxious thoughts, intrusive fears...

Thanks all for the insightful and kind responses. I am stuck on this anxiety about normality... Is it normal to be all over the place with PTSD and EMDR? As I said, the mood swings get me extremely anxious. I am DEFINITELY on constant red-alert and mental illness is perhaps the biggest trigger...

Hi, I am in sort of a crisis state... Maybe not exactly a crisis, but I am kind of all over the place and full of anxiety and other negative feelings. I have been doing EMDR on and off for the last three years. I started up again a few weeks ago. I have noticed that I will feel great...

Thank you! And yes, I will try. It's so easy to just be polite and act like things are hunky dory but that defeats the purpose, doesn't it? Ha... I'm going to try to sleep now. Again, welcome to the forums!

You've already helped to support me! Welcome! I hope you enjoy your time here. We're all here to help.