Recent content by Loner

Nothing is wrong with you. You went through a traumatic experience and have unpleasant lasting effects because of it.

The worst thing thats going to happen is you dont get the job, which would put you in exactly the same situation you were in before you knew they were interested in you/that you had an interview.

Thanks. I guess I can tell myself good job for being mature with her and stuff, but I don't feel like oh I'm so far along in my recovery etc. I mean I guess I've come a long ways and I'm proud of that but its not like I get to just bask in the glory of that, it still just feels really lonely to...

Well I did it. It was really not that bad. She is harmless now. Weak and unhappy and not capable of being honest with herself but she has little to no power to hurt me. We talked for a couple hours. I gave her the sugar coated version of why I don't feel close to her, basically just told her I...

I think maybe you need a vacation.

This felt like something I should and could do when I made these plans. Now that its this afternoon I am feeling far less capable of dealing with it. My emotional state is ugg this is going to suck. I know I can do it though. I do feel like I owe her at least a conversation.

Thanks for the replies. I'm doing pretty ok right now, just kind of torn, part of me wants to really be honest with her about how messed up she was to me, and confront her about the weird sexual things. THen I think that won't do any good and I should just state the fact I felt she never seemed...

Thank you gizmo. I guess you're right and I should pat myself on the back and be proud of that. I have been processing things since seeing her this morning and I just feel sad. I don't feel angry at her any more because it really wasnt her fault she was born with NPD, but it just makes me feel...

On the surface, to a strangers eyes, my mother would of seemed a normal caring mother, but she is an actress, I believe she has Narcissistic Personality Disorder. This is the woman who was emotionally and sexually abusive towards me. The sexual abuse was not THAT bad as far as I can remember...

I am so sorry that an adult that you trusted did this to you. It was not your fault.

You're not taking tramadol are you? That is a side effect. Try not to stress about it I guess. Easier said than done.

OK its not easy at all the hit that off button. The first step is just reminding yourself every time you notice that you're doing it, just tell yourself, ok, these are my issues, its not my neighbors, its my hypervigilance, etc. It sounds silly but I've found if I just take a step back and look...

Ya. Maybe. She wasn't good for me in some ways but she was so amazing, so gorgeous, good at so many things, funny, I really enjoyed interacting with her for the most part. Even if I never meet anyone as alluring and exciting to me as she was, thats life. All I can do now is look forward and do...

Yea I've had some neighbors that didn't like me either. Maybe it isn't cus you're weird, maybe its just because they are unfriendly? Or maybe people are standoffish at first and take time to warm up to someone? Other people have issues too you know. Maybe your desire to interact with them on a...

Identity issues like gay or straight will sort themselves out with time. For now, just make healthy choices. You have identified habits that are not healthy, for now just try and make healthy choices and take things one day at a time. I really think the gay/straight thing really isnt that...