Recent content by metis-siren

Hello, I'm not new here, so a hello to all of those of you I've chatted with years ago if you are still around. I'm not doing well at all and I haven't been for some time. Situation as it stands: socially isolated with partner on other side of continent for work, psych supports are a...

I had hoped (somewhat naively) that in the situation that I'm in my PTSD symptoms would either become less apparent due to physical health concerns overriding, or that the most prevalent symptom would be disassociation. I am begrudingly admitting this is not the case, that instead my mental...

I feel empty - like a part of me is missing or went on vacation (It just couldn't take my physical person alongside it on this vacation, could it?)

Thanks, I am trying to rest because I get that there won't always be times during this journey/battle/road/path/whatever other metaphor one might use to be able to rest for what lies next. To add another stressor - my credit card got hacked today. My bank was quick to respond and are covering...

So the past three weeks have been absolutely dismal to my mental state and quite triggering. I suppose I should start at the beginning: Synopsis of past three weeks: Breakup with Fiancé, Victim's Comp, and Serious Health Concerns 3 weeks ago: I broke up with my fiancé whom I live with - and...

I really enjoy the Big Bang Theory - it seems to be a very good show to watch post therapy as I find it quite funny. Being Erica - I don't know that you'll find this on netflix, it's a Canadian show - but I absolutely love it, would probably take that show over most others any day. Mini-series...

I'm feeling sad for the loss of a relationship that is a very hard but necessary breakup. I'm proud of myself acknowledging I'm not superwoman and that these things affect me and I can't ignore/run away from them by keeping myself busy and giving myself permission to stay in pj's and skip school...

Will post more later, but suffice to say, yes. C-PTSD, Fibro, CFS, Migraines, Bunch of stomach disorders - woo. But I agree, between the managing of chronic pain, attempting to use what little energy one has smartly (I don't do this far too often), and the plethora of symptoms related to PTSD...

There was a side effect no one told me about and seeing as I was only 17 at the time, the side effect that caught me off guard was lactation. To this day, regardless of what they think it might do, I refuse to take it because I don't want to be constantly lactating, it only stopped when I ceased...

"That I Would Be Good" - Alanis Morissette

The memory of feeling normal is from that day - I was diagnosed with PTSD at about 16, and can't remember a period of time where it was ever truly normal, so having that day feeling normal and having an extraordinary memory, it warms me. It never ceases to amaze me when I can remember a good day...

I remember being in Dublin, Ireland for my 18th birthday with the love of my life, walking through Trinity college on our way to a very nice dinner and realizing I was in no way prepared to walk over cobblestone in tiny little heels. I remember how green the grass was, how pretty I felt in my...

I'm feeling sad, distanced from the reality I want to live in, alone. I feel tired, overwhelmed, underwhelmed with my life and where I am - but grateful at the same time that I've gotten this far and that I have the knowledge to carry me through the day. I feel tiny. I feel like today I don't...

When what you consider to be a completely coherent and logical discussion is referred to by the other person as you rambling again. When you look at the Caller ID on the phone and actually duck because you're afraid they might know you're home.

I don't know how much I can add - my therapist told me I had Alice in Wonderland syndrome (or whatever it is), but the onset can be seemingly random or on days where I'm in situations where there is enough stress and triggers that I get complete distortion - but I'm always aware that it's...