I'm feeling sad for the loss of a relationship that is a very hard but necessary breakup. I'm proud of myself acknowledging I'm not superwoman and that these things affect me and I can't ignore/run away from them by keeping myself busy and giving myself permission to stay in pj's and skip school to feel whatever I need to feel.
I feel incredibly grateful to have the friends I have, one who came over on his birthday with his kids to give me a piece of his birthday cake - when he lives 45 minutes away. Just grateful to have the supports I have now, because I feel deep down that having their support will make a world of difference in getting through this difficult time.
I feel happy, sad, anxious, self-pitying, apathetic, lost, and tired. Overwhelmingly tired amongst everything else I am feeling because how I feel changes from minute to minute, the only constant being the intensity of how much I feel.