What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[cherryblossom]

Anxious
Nervous
Guilty
Self-hatred
Weak

 

[seedling]

I feel like I am sinking into "it" again. Very sad, overwhelmed, impatient with myself.

 

[Iam]

Ditto that Seedling.
So damned tired of this up and down rollercoaster. I felt pretty good all day today. Then coming home from a very nice visit with a friend I started feeling anxious. Then up again, excited about some news regarding my son and now down, feeling like crying. What the hell is going on?

 

[Iam]

Anxiety, major anxiety. I have my first appt with the EMDR psych tomorrow morning, then have to hustle back in time to make my session with my regular T. He's hoping my doing EMDR before our session will help me access my feelings since I have been unable to do that in our sessions over the last year. That in itself terrifies me. I mean I want to access them. I want all of this to be done and over with. I am terrified of remembering the details of some of my assaults too. God, when will this be OVER?

 

[James B.]

Good luck tomorrow Iam. Sounds like a big day for anyone. I can understand your anxiety. You can do it.

Today feeling pretty good overall. Good mood, low anxiety but kind of out of it this PM. Have to remind myself about the medication withdrawal, and also that I've just started some new therapy. My brain just kinda feels a little slow, and I feel kinda dingy (LOL) sometimes. I mean, more dingy that usual...LOL.

 

[Iam]

Thanks James...yes I can do this, just wish I could do it without all the anxiety about memories and experiencing intense emotions.

I am proud of you for weaning off your meds. What is the new therapy that you are starting? Are you referring to the supplements?

 

[Deleted member 6617]

For the first time in weeks I am feeling a very small glimmer of hope.

Also feeling like I need to be very careful with it so it doesn't go away but grows.
How silly is that....fear of hope....well, fear of lossing hope, so fear of hoping.

 

[goingonhope]

I'm feeling too entirely stressed out from too much!

 

[bluecat]

contradictory mix of feelings:
focused and excited about my work
anxious, holding my breath
on and off adrenaline rush
tired
but happy and accomplished (work and pulling through the last round of flashbacks and feeling like I addressed some issues and maybe they won't come back to haunt me anymore, I can dream, lol)
more connected to people (knock on wood!!!!)

 

[Deleted member 6617]

I am feeling very humbled, very blessed, loved, embarassed, grateful, mixed bag of feelings.
Came home today to shampoo, laundry soap, dish soap, hand soap, toilet paper, foil, seran wrap, and napkins at my door. Wow....all of which we needed and I could not go buy. No note...I don't know who left them.
Now I feel like crying...I feel cared for and cared about.
I feel very thankful!

 

[goingonhope]

Today I have felt many positive feelings, as well as some painful ones resulting from painful present realities; all quite normal and manageable. Did feel some sadness too, all part of a present-time grieving process I'm going through. Tonight I feel good, just simply a bit confused.

Overall, a good day!

 

[Jade-]

I'm feeling nothing. Absolutely nothing. I'm not even sure I'm in my body today, I feel like I'm hovering a few inches above myself and my entire body is lightly vibrating. But that's ok because sometimes it's just too overwhelming and too painful to feel. At least I should have a good day until reality hits.