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I was essentially abducted from my house by an ambulance crew ordered by my parents many years ago. The fact it happened in my house, and that I have never gotten away, means that nearly everything remotely connected to that event is a major trigger of flashbacks. I've been trying to manage...

I am sorry you are going through what you are going through right now. I face a similar fate right now, realizing inside for the first time how an inner child feels neglected and forced by other people's anger into an involuntary psych unit. That's not the only time my parents betrayed me. It...

That was an interesting article. I wish they gave more specifics on the parts of the brain -if they studied that - but I think the study was more behavioral. I know that as someone who has been faced with sudden stress causing bursts of noise, I am very high alert when anything loud even...

I can't say this definitively but I would say the risk is not as severe as you have shared. At most serotonin receptors seroquel is an antagonist - meaning it blocks the serotonin from binding. In my experience seroquel has helped off set some of the ssri side effects of whatever ssri I am on...

I skipped a dose on my lamictal, the other day and this morning and that - combined with family dysfunction (my parents taking my phone first thing in the morning, leaving me high and dry and my dad in another pissed off mood) - led me to elbow a hole in a door in a burst of instanteous reaction...

This month is going to be hell. 1) It resembles the time of year my most horrific and recent trauma occurred: All of a sudden one night being told by my parents I had to go to the hospital, and within minutes having an ambulance crew come and after some time and freaking out, being tied to an...

Maybe this applies to any kind of trauma, but there's a storm forming - and where you used to like storms- this one feels like it will lead to some catastrophic life event. Maybe that's me just expecting catastrophic life events to happen every night tho.

FWIW, here's the myptsd thread on grounding https://www.myptsd.com/threads/grounding-101.12459/

Or when recording the major traumatic events that happened in one year time span is too daunting, because there were too many different ones - and you don't want to return to the ones you're temporarily blocking out.

You know you have complex trauma when, in the middle of a flashback at night, you have to remind yourself you are not in the hospital being traumatized - just so you can return the flashback you are having in your house because you were traumatized there too.

I happened to come across Peter Levine's 'In an Unspoken Voice: How the Body Releases Trauma and Restores Goodness' at the library. I was briefly familiar with his work through youtube videos and the term Somatic Experiencing, but I didn't realize how literally physical it all is. He spends...

Wow. I had almost the exact same experience - same styrofoam cups, no strings, deserted 'activity rooms with no art supplies, no NOTHING - except it lasted for four months and was completely against my will. . . . Its kind of the trauma that keeps me coming back here now and again (well the...

I've been on seroquel a long time, and very briefly tried switching to risperdal. Honestly Risperdal didn't do much at all, just made my thinking kind of fuzzy. It doesn't have nearly the sedating effects of Seroquel, and it is generally not considered among the big weight offenders as far as...

It's a good thing to remember that Xanax is a very short acting benzodiazepine. I should look it up, but its half life is only about 4-6 hours, meaning its out of your system quick when you take it. Ativan is probably a lot better. I've become pretty much married to about 2 mg klonopin. Its...

My mother neglected, harassed and generally made my life miserable during a period of time when I was experiencing extreme physical pain and stress and needed help from my parents with a lot of small things. It was a sustained passive aggressive set of behavior (in my view anyway) In addition...