Recent content by Pauline

I agree with you I just don't know how to get out of my spiral it's just the situation and event I wish they were here with me I am probably putting to much pressure on them but they're my comfort and safety I know it's wrong but i can't deal with the fact of losing my mother I can't comprehend...

Hey guys here I am again... life just keeps throwing traumatic events at me! My mother has stage four anaplastic thyroid cancer we live in England she had to go to Florida to get extremely heavy treatment I have four siblings, I feel very overwhelmed, hurt and traumatised I am left in a big...

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I've calmed down a bit I'm deciding to book an appointment with my psychiatrist i am thinking about self harm a lot I am trying my best not to do it but it helps so much with everything what would you do if you were me any advice

I cannot stop my self harm I'm really f*cked up right now my mum has serious cancer I don't know what to do with myself my self harm although I try to control it really helps me, I am deciding to see my psychiatrist again and I have weekly therapy sessions I probably sound like a freak but I...

Hey guys so I posted a forum about a letter I wanted to show my therapist. My mother has cancer and I'm in England when she is in Florida. I have a heart condition which really scares me and I don't know how to get myself out of a situation, I am trying to find a job and a place to live and it...

Thank you I really needed to hear that the problem is I still live with him off and on occasion my mother is dying with cancer and I have a heart condition which really irritates me he really distresses me to know end I'm a better writer than I am talker I've literally bought a diary so I can...

Hi all I wanted to write this letter to my therapist to show her how i felt about my dad Dear daddy I will always love you, in fact I still do love you I still do rely on you, I still give you hugs you still give me hugs and tell me you love me but I have a secret and so do you, and that...

Thank you guys I'm going to get up the courage to tell my counsellor this week about my distress of my dad and then hopefully focus on moving out my mother is very sick and I am also very traumatised by this matter I might just write it down and show him the piece of paper instead X

Hi guys so I haven't posted on here for a while but my mum has cancer and I am living in the uk when she is in the states I hate my father I find my daddy terrifying and want nothing to do with him I know why I find him terrifying but it's hard to say out loud I want to tell my psychiatrist...

I am in the same situation as you I have heart condition and I was molested as child I will never have a full picture of my abuse but what's I have is regression and deep fear extreme self harm tendency and memory gaps you may never get the full picture of who did what to you and what I learnt...

It's been a few months since I've posted on this site but I feel really hopeless at the moment with my childlike dissociation it's gotten worse. When I was 16 I had a extreme panic attack that caused me to black out loose my memory and revert to a childlike voice since then I have had bouts of...

It's just so hard cause I want answers but I will never get them ?

I am so frustrated I feel like things will never improve for me i have dissociative identity disorder and its ruining my life i don't know if i am having flashbacks of my sexual abuse, i am griefing the fact that i never got to be a little girl, i have a bear and a moose (cuddly toys) and im...

Thank you I don't really like the person I've become through all this I don't know how I got so dark I don't know what fully happened to me my abuse is buried deep but it's effecting my present I want to change my current self harm patterns and myself and I want clarity and full answers I hate...