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I have this recurring overwhelming feeling that I might all of a sudden lose control over myself and my body. Not sure what that would look like. It usually sends me in a panic, especially if I'm in public or in a bus, train, etc since there are other people around. This sensation doesn't last...

I can relate, I had a flashback during a conversation and I wonder how I acted because I'm not very sure... I recall shaking really bad but that's it. I never had the courage to ask as the person who saw me was really freaked out by the whole experience.

@Rani G I also struggle with allowing myself to "need" connection with other people and there are a lot of things that play into it, like the feelings of being unworthy of connection. Unfortunately that also ended up hurting others because I would be so distant and not engaging with them...

Hi! I thought about sharing this, maybe someone can relate and help me because I'm stuck... I have some abandonment issues rooted in childhood and throughout my life I got into a pattern of being overly attached to authoritive figures like teachers, aunts and uncles, pastors, etc. Even if on...

@mumstheword That was a very beautiful post?

I started reading "Me before you" by Jojo Moyes. I like it a lot so far, but I heard it has a sad ending...

I struggle with this, being angry at God for not coming through for me when I was going through hard moments. I came to the conclusion that I could choose to live my life being angry and bitter towards God or believe that He loves me and cares about me despite my life circumstances. I still...

I don't know how many people use to have this kind of thoughts, but for me death was always on my mind. When I was 3 years old my grandfather died and I was surrounded during my childhood by old and dying family members so I developed this idea that I'm also very sick and I'm gonna die soon. It...

When I share something painful with my T I automatically look down, it's impossible to control it even though I'm aware of it. I do it because of shame but also the fear of seeing my T smile or laugh at me, I couldn't handle that response. Of course, he never does.

This describes so well my situation! I think part of them is genuinely sorry for what they did, but they immediately jump in to find a way to justify their bad behavior and minimize it's impact. When I hear them describe the abuse with words like "a moment of weekness" and that the person who...

How do you feel/respond when people react to your story with the phrase "leave the past behind"? Personally, I used to never think about events that happen in childhood, until I realized that even if it was 10 or 20 years ago it did left a mark that I'm still trying to heal. So often I act/react...

I think that not leaving the house for long periods of time can affect our emotional well being. For me it definitely increases my level of anxiety.

It's very beautiful indeed!! I also have a diary but I'm never persistent enough to write in it on a regular basis.

Hi and welcome to the forums! ? I can imagine it must be really hard to deal with those types of invasive thoughts. I can relate to the anxiety symptoms and oppression, I had a period in my life I thought I would never get out of that hell...unfortunately I was neither in therapy nor on...

@siniang Thank you for your reply, I admit I felt a little beaten down in this discussion. I own my mistakes in my relationship with my grandmother and for sure I could do better, I guess I just wanted to find out how to warm up to someone I don't feel close to and sometimes feel angry at but...