Undiagnosed Inpatient care for trauma?

Hi everyone sorry if I shouldn’t be here due to being undiagnosed. A year and half ago I suffered a traumatic pregnancy loss and I’ve been struggling with my mental health since. I tried medication but had an awful reaction to it so that’s not an option. I try to keep myself together and sometimes I go through phases where I’m okay but then I end up crashing again.

I have severe anxiety, OCD like symptoms, panic attacks, depression. I was in therapy but it pushed me into a deep depression and I ended up having flashbacks and nightmares again so I stopped going because it was too much to handle on top of going to work etc. I know the anxiety is connected to the trauma because if I’m not depressed about the loss, that’s when I experience the anxiety.

I’ve been recommended inpatient treatment and I have declined because I was in a good spot at the time but I’m starting to have symptoms again and I’m thinking about changing my mind. Wondering if anyone has done inpatient and if it was helpful. It’s been a long time and I know I shouldn’t be this distressed about what happened still. Even when I’m doing well and don’t have anxiety or depression symptoms, the trauma is still on my mind constantly throughout the day which is why I’m suspecting ptsd.

Welcome to the forum!

bananabread said:

It’s been a long time and I know I shouldn’t be this distressed about what happened still.

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If it was that simple, PTSD wouldn’t even be a thing! This experience has had this impact on you - you didn’t choose it to play out this way, but it has, and that’s a very human thing.

bananabread said:

Wondering if anyone has done inpatient and if it was helpful

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Yep, done a lot (like…a LOT!!) of inpatient treatment. In public and private hospitals. Good and bad and variations that were somewhere in between.

Times it was helpful fall into 2 categories:
1) when I was too unwell to keep myself alive and safe; OR
2) when the facility had a good quality inpatient program that addressed the mental health condition I was there for.

Other times, probably a good outpatient / day program would have done a better job.

hello bananabread. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

bananabread said:

Wondering if anyone has done inpatient and if it was helpful.

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i've done several rounds. they fit a recurring theme throughout my recovery from child sex trafficking, they were/are as helpful as i decide to let them be. many of my worst therapy experiences turned out to be the most valuable later on.

there are no panaceas. we figure out the solutions and coping mechanisms as we go.

steadying support while you find your way. welcome aboard.

bananabread said:

I know I shouldn’t be this distressed about what happened stil

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This is a belief that is 'just' a belief and not a fact. You went through a traumatic pregnancy loss. That is something that has so many layers of distress and sadness in it. There is no 'should' about how you feel.

Therapy does make things worse before it gets better. That is one of the major crap things about therapy. It also takes time. Another crap thing.
And very hard to navigate when you need to function at work.
If in person has been offered, that might help.
Would trying therapy again help?

I had thought about doing inpatient but I could never get straight answers from the provider as to what is covered by insurance and what isn’t. They were pushing a 90 day program for $70,000. And there would be add ons. A lot of what they were pushing was substance abuse related and fortunately I don’t have those issues. I passed but I have been looking for an outpatient program but the closest is a couple hours away.