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My thought during or after a panic attack or day spent ruminating and solving to feel safe: What is the point of doing all of this work if I end up still having nights of just throwing up and sheer terror? What do I do next? I know this sounds like the dumbest question, but I am SO confused...

I have been trying so many different therapists and really having a hard time finding the right one. Some say all of the evidence-based modes of treatment are garbage and to ONLY do yoga and mindfulness... some say ONLY exposure. Anyhow, I thought I found someone who was really really great...

Hi. I have been diagnosed with PTSD. But I'm having trouble getting to trauma treatment because my panic attacks, panic disorder and CONSTANT terror over the symptoms of PTSD are overwhelming. I am convinced I am insane after the PTSD breakdown last March, even though I know I'm not. I am...

I have been in therapy (a combo of CPT and ER) and honestly it's been really hard but I have not had a sleepless night in SO LONg. These nights are filled with my biggest cognitive distortions that I can't seem to shake yet. Thoughts that say, "If you don't sleep you will end up commited to an...

Hi. I don't see a forum dedicated to intrusive symptoms, so I hope it's ok that I am posting here. I am in therapy and doing well. Baby steps, but truly healing little by little, inch by inch. Am I still mad that it took a full 12 months since my trauma for me to find a therapist who actually...

I am working with my new PTSD therapist at untangling the misdiagnosis I received from the traumatic OCD specialist/experience. I am doing a CPT worksheet and need to untangle the belief that my PTSD symptoms are *only* in OCD. I have made great progress, but I am stuck on a few symptoms: 1)...

As with so many of you, there are so many layers to my trauma. Right now I am on my couch fighting SO HARD not to vomit. I took my medication three hours ago and need to keep it down. I have this thing that happens, and it has always happened since my trauma in 1998. Once in a while, usually...

Hello. I was misdiagnosed as having OCD and the treatment for this made me way, way, worse. The person who treated me said that even though all of my intrusive thoughts and images and panic attacks were about my near death trauma, the fact that my brain wouldn't believe I wasn't crazy meant I...

For whatever reason, around my period, I get SO SICK to my stomach and I end up throwing up for 24-48 hours nonstop. Whenever I try to close my eyes and sleep, just as I am hitting 5 minutes, my body rushes awake and I throw up, my legs kick me awake, I wake up shouting for help... I have been...

I had PTSD in 1998. I worked my ass off and it was still there but more a whisper. Than in March of this year I experienced another trauma and it all came back. Only this time I have children and a husband and a big ol life to live. I haven't shared this with anyone but when the PTSD came...

Hello. I type this while awake beside my sweet daughter who is sound asleep. I fell asleep putting her to bed tonight and then BAM woke up from a night terror about 10 minutes later screaming HELP HELP I CANNOT DO THIS. I immediately repeated, "You are safe" over and over and got up to drink...

Everything is immediately catastrophic. EVERYTHING is worst case. I'm starting to doubt that I have PTSD and wondering if I have some other mental illness. I've been googling nonstop to see if I have OCD or something. All I do is worry. And then I worry that I will never stop worrying. And...

Hello. I was wondering if any of you have places to go online that remind you of coping skills and hopeful things? Especially when I can't sleep due to constant flashbacks waking me up, it would be so nice to have somewhere online to visit that reminds me of what to do in that terrified state...

My recovery is actually going quite well, but there's one piece that remains such a huge challenge for me. Using relaxation, white noise and a weighted blanket I am able to fall asleep in moments (yay!) but sometimes just as I am drifting into dream land, my body wakes me up with a rush of...

I always come on here when things are shitty, but I just want to report that I started a CPT group therapy program and it helped me tremendously. For 23 days, I slept like a baby and didn't have single flashback! My anxiety is really bad today and I cannot seem to get any sleep tonight, but...

I am now in a place where I can finally accept PTSD. But I cannot accept these symptoms. The CONSTANT panic attacks all day and night, the constant intrusive images, constant catastrophic thinking like a paranoid crazy woman. The worst part is being a Mom and watching my kids watch me like...

I am terrified at all times. My body shakes nonstop. I throw up constantly. When I try to sleep I wake up every 3 minutes screaming and kicking and feeling like my heart has stopped and I'm gasping for air. I have nonstop dissociation and intrusive images and flashbacks. And I mean NONSTOP. I...

Hello. I was mis-diagnosed for months before diagnosed as PTSD. Is there a place that lists the symptoms, other than the diagnostic criteria that are so vague? I'm having non-stop worrying - I mean NONSTOP worrying. EVERYTHING is worst case scenario and worry and panic. I'm convinced I'm...

Hi. Me again. As I navigate this PTSD world, after believing I was completely insane for a long time, I am taking it one symptom at a time. When I first had symptoms and went to my general doctor she said some very, very damaging diagnosis that has stuck with me now. She has since apologized...

Just as I am about to fall asleep I am jolted awake by a huge surge of terror and panic. Adrenaline floods my entire body and my arms go totally numb. I get ZERO sleep because the cycle just keeps happening. I calm myself and then get jolted awake by terror. I've tried xanax and clonapin...

EMDR? CPT? Yoga? CBT? DBT? I want help and a therapist but have no clue where to begin.

I recently read an account of what it feels like to go through withdrawal from benzo addiction and that is the closest thing I have found that explains how I feel physically and emotionally (even though I've never taken benzos - I'm just saying). My doctors and therapists keep reassuring me that...

I'm in a state of PTSD terror/trigger so I'll do my best making sense. I start with a new therapist and do great for 2-3 weeks. I feel so hopeful and feel awesome. And then BAM the therapist themselves becomes a giant trauma/trigger. Just thinking about the office or the smell of their perfume...

Hello. I went down on my paxil from 8mg-7mg in February and then had a complete mental breakdown. I cannot sleep, barely eat, all of my PTSD symptoms came rushing back full force. My legs and arms constantly jump and twitch and I am in a constant state of terror. I cannot figure out if this...

Feeling alone is making me feel like I'm crazy. I wish there was a local support group for PTSD women, just like there is for AA. Anyhow, here is what I am experiencing and I would love it so much if you, or someone you know, can say you've experienced this as well. I fall asleep and then...