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I did apologize originally when we both awkwardly apologize, but yeah we definitely both handled it roughly. I appreciate the call-in. I guess I'm just frustrated rn mainly bc she never told me any of the issues she was having and then when I asked her and talked to her in person, so nicely, she...

Thank you @lifeinthematrix I agree with that and so does my therapist (I didn’t at first). It’s not the first time she’s pressured me to do stuff either (stay out later, drink more than normal, pushing other boundaries). I’m glad she’s moving far away. Also as a weird update, she finally texted...

This whole thing...@Friday, can I buy you a coffee? Or pay for this therapy session? This makes so, so much sense to me. I definitely had to use to give into people who genuinely coerced me because I was going to be assaulted in other ways or it was just going to happen. I'm gonna bring this...

And I guess it made her feel that way too, but I don't know what to do about that if she doesn't want to talk to me, so I'll give it time I guess. I think maybe we bring out the worst of each other and are better as just roommates and not friends.

I guess that makes sense, it still made me feel the way assaults do, and I don't feel safe going out with her anymore either.

She was the one who ended up kissing me, she was touchy and weird, and we both weren't sober. I can get her side of it, I do, but asking someone over and over until you wear them down absolutely is coercion, or at least what I've been taught in therapy. I'm not used to being the DD for people...

Hi all. I need some outside advice from someone who doesn't know me for what to do, and if I was in the wrong or right. I think I'm sort of in the wrong, but also so is the other person. A few weeks ago, my roommate and I went out to a gay bar to go dancing and drinking. I was the DD so I had...

I just called them and went over it!!! I’ll probably get another appointment soon

thank you that helps so so much, I definitely was struggling. I was able to sleep after changing all my sheets, that tricked my brain a lot!! my roommate had suggested it for me, she has experience with animals having worms, also we have to isolate her for now because my roommate has cats, so...

I also just am spending too much money. I took preventative measures but it’s so hard to stop.

Well I think a day or two after this I started showing signs of mania. I have barely been sleeping but have tons of energy. Comboed with psychosis symptoms, seeing things. Tonight I went out to a charity concert thinking it would wear me out and I would sleep (I have so far slept two non...

Hi thank you both!! I took it at night again last night and I slept sooo well so hopefully that continues. My doctor said I can’t take it in the AM which I get it’s very sedative. I think I was having a PTSD episode the other night bc I had awful symptoms. I feel way better today albeit very sleepy.

Thank you @LittleBigFoot ! I'm on buspar at night so maybe we can up it for sleep. That was my first day o it and my first day tapering off Geodon too. I think I'm just freaking out because I've missed so much work and just feel like I'm failing at life (even though I'm doing a great job at work...

Also all these med changes are upping my appetite so badly, I've gained over 30lbs since moving to this new state, I feel awful about myself and I know Abilify can add weight too which is scary to me because I can barely get myself to eat right, let alone eat at all (ED active--I either starve...

Hi all! I was recently diagnosed with bipolar I with psychosis on top of CPTSD (which is mainly in remission but occasionally I have triggers, they just usually don't affect me too badly). My doctor is tapering off my Geodon that I've been on for years (hasn't been working, been having...

Hello all, I just need a place to put this that is safe. I started my first big boy salaried position today. Excellent pay, fun work, stuff I love to do, great coworkers. I had a great first day and even when I logged off for the day I was ready for the next (it's remote too!! woohoo!!). I...

She is!! She wants to try it with one cat. Also my parents moved down last week so I've been able to walk my dog some and that helps!! I actually started volunteering for a pet rescue remotely and was able to help them at an event I think two weekends ago!! I just started my new job today...

I just need a place to let this out before I bring it up in therapy. I ran a business (started as a hobby when I was 5 years old, made it into a 46 client business by the time I was 19/20) for most of my life and lost it due to COVID. I moved from where this business is two months ago, and no...

That's very true!! I have been in relationships and had a lot of friend and romantic breakups since my abusive ex, but it's been 3 years since I've tried to date since the last "breakup" was with a toxic person and left me feeling like absolute shit. It hurt breaking up with friends, too (I've...

I'm literally having PTSD symptoms I haven't had since when I broke up with my abusive ex. I feel so ashamed I basically just let this happen again. They apologized over and over and it's just. I needed to communicate better but I was so clear and they didn't understand me. it feels like I was...

Just had to come back in here and say that I asked them to be direct about how they feel about me and they just see me as a friend then proceeded to gaslight me tell me that I never told them I had feelings even though I said I did multiple times, and that this is just how they are with all of...

Thank you both!! I looked them up and am going to see if my local library has them. I appreciate it!! I actually did something I was really scared to do. I was having an absolute breakdown last night and was scared to be alone (not even a dangerous level, I was just in a bad state of mind) and...

Hello all! I just found out about fearful attachment and am sobbing both happy and sad tears because I'm realizing it's me to the very description. I crave close relationships and love, but I am absolutely terrified of intimacy. I posted recently about a friend I've gotten really close to. We...

An update!! I am moved to my first apartment since last Wednesday and it's so close I can walk to this person's house. We've already hung out quite a bit, I think three times last week and maybe three this week? Maybe four? I have been having horrible pain and one day I said I wanted ice cream...

Thank you so much Friday. All of this makes so much sense, and is what we're already doing for each other!! This is a huge comfort to me!! I agree, and honestly, I am going through a major life change and need more time to feel comfortable even pursuing a relationship with them, as much as I...