Strangelongtrip
MyPTSD Pro
Hi all!
I was recently diagnosed with bipolar I with psychosis on top of CPTSD (which is mainly in remission but occasionally I have triggers, they just usually don't affect me too badly). My doctor is tapering off my Geodon that I've been on for years (hasn't been working, been having hallucinations), and I'm also on Effexor and buspar.
My doctor also added 5mg Abilify. I took my last dose last night and I have slept maybe two to four hours. The insomnia is worse than anything I've ever had (I've had insomnia my entire life). I'm also recovering from an awful, awful case of mono and not sleeping makes everything worse. However, I think it's already improving my mood. I've been swinging hard between deep depression and high high mania even on my meds and this is the most level I've felt. I've been having constant, draining suicidal ideation and right now I can't even think of it--big improvement.
Those who were on it, did you adjust and stop having insomnia? I'm thinking of taking it in the AM instead of PM.
I'm also just struggling. I feel like the world has just been hitting me with things after things. I'm proud about how I'm dealing with it, and I wouldn't have been this level a year to five years ago, but it's just hard. I wish I could pay for two therapy sessions a week. I'm trying to balance my first full-time salary job with dealing with these awful symptoms, dealing with fatigue from recovering from mono, med adjustments, the worst triggering experiences I've had in years, chores, family time, friend time, self care, and taking care of my hopefully-mine-in-24 days street dog my roommate found (her owner most likely doesn't want her back, local law says we haver to wait 30 days after filing a found dog claim to keep her). She is so helpful but the apprehension of possibly losing her is so anxiety inducing that I was having trouble sleeping before the meds.
I was recently diagnosed with bipolar I with psychosis on top of CPTSD (which is mainly in remission but occasionally I have triggers, they just usually don't affect me too badly). My doctor is tapering off my Geodon that I've been on for years (hasn't been working, been having hallucinations), and I'm also on Effexor and buspar.
My doctor also added 5mg Abilify. I took my last dose last night and I have slept maybe two to four hours. The insomnia is worse than anything I've ever had (I've had insomnia my entire life). I'm also recovering from an awful, awful case of mono and not sleeping makes everything worse. However, I think it's already improving my mood. I've been swinging hard between deep depression and high high mania even on my meds and this is the most level I've felt. I've been having constant, draining suicidal ideation and right now I can't even think of it--big improvement.
Those who were on it, did you adjust and stop having insomnia? I'm thinking of taking it in the AM instead of PM.
I'm also just struggling. I feel like the world has just been hitting me with things after things. I'm proud about how I'm dealing with it, and I wouldn't have been this level a year to five years ago, but it's just hard. I wish I could pay for two therapy sessions a week. I'm trying to balance my first full-time salary job with dealing with these awful symptoms, dealing with fatigue from recovering from mono, med adjustments, the worst triggering experiences I've had in years, chores, family time, friend time, self care, and taking care of my hopefully-mine-in-24 days street dog my roommate found (her owner most likely doesn't want her back, local law says we haver to wait 30 days after filing a found dog claim to keep her). She is so helpful but the apprehension of possibly losing her is so anxiety inducing that I was having trouble sleeping before the meds.