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Thank you @joeylittle I've been in doctor's offices, no problem. So maybe I'll look into that. I've been exposed multiple times, before people knew they were sick, but have never had symptoms. I'lll see if my insurance would cover that. My T talked to me more about the test, and I was maybe...

Thank you for telling me more about it @Deanna ! I think I’m nervous bc way back in March I read an article about mishandled tears actually giving people COVID. My neighbors got tested at this site and were all fine, though, but I was so nervous.

Thank you!! I think if I didn’t try it I’d regret it, but I know if it doesn’t work out after a year or two I can always come home!!

Thank you all!! Yeah the rest of my family has been lax and don’t care. It makes me really anxious and sad but I can’t control that, just can control myself!

thank you @siniang thats what I’m gonna do, I feel sorta embarrassed about the whole thing. I had not trouble traveling cross country but getting a test, which is safer? Total meltdown

I live with my parents but I don't think they're willing to take me. They don't think I need a test. I don't unfortunately. CBD helps somewhat. I already had a panic attack and am still anxious, but I did cancel the test. I'm still anxious, though. trying breathing now. My state isn't that...

I'm going to cancel it again. I feel so weak for giving into anxiety but I feel like maybe the anxiety is keeping me safe.

Hey everyone, I travelled recently, through COVID-heavy states, and have been quarantining since then. My 14 days are up next Tuesday. I wear a mask around the people I live with and we stay 6 feet apart. I have had no symptoms, I had a bout of dizziness and allergies when I first got back (but...

@Recovery4Me I'm so sorry you're experiencing a flare up, and I hope it subsides soon. I don't have the same illness as you, but I have a condition that causes dizziness and increased heart rate, and brain fog. I also have occasionally severe chronic pain. Medication has helped me the most. I...

Thank you @MainerMikeBrown !! I hope Maine makes you happy, and if not, you get to leave one day!

I've felt so many emotions I emotionally numbed and went totally dead. Like, felt nothing except slight irritation. I just sort of "opened the dam" and I feel almost heartbroken, like it's not like a breakup but it's like I wasn't their favorite person, too. like that seems so irrational, but it...

I'm here, for sure. I think I've honestly entered emotional numbing bc I'm feeling the emotions I'm avoiding right now and I'd really rather be numb. it's like so close yet so far. the closer I get the farther it is. I like this idea, this is how I packed to visit out there: I packed a week in...

I am moving out to a state in the west at the end of 2020 or beginning of 2021, and recently visited to make sure I liked it. I fell in love. It's beautiful, the weather is perfect, it's expensive but not more than where I lived for college (and honestly where I live now...is also very...

I relate to this so much. After I stopped binge drinking/using drugs excessively, I moved onto buying things to cope. The excitement when you order them, and when they arrive. It helped me. I actually didn't get over it until I lost my job this year bc of COVID and money was uncertain. What...

Hey @Mach123 !! I’ve done the same thing about threads honestly, I don’t know what makes them featured either to be honest. I’m sorry you’re dealing with the same thing!! Im glad your therapist gets it but also sad she pushes like that. It has gotten better, but I still lapse into old habits...

Thank you @Gwaihir !! I'm getting there. I still don't know myself totally. I'm working on it, one step at a time :)

Thank you @Movingforward10. I think it’s because they may have found someone, and I still haven’t. But you’re right, it’s just around the corner. I’ve found asking them about this new date has been helpful at alleviating jealousy. I do feel pressure to date, but I really just want to know myself...

Hi all! I’ve been posting recently about a crush I had, I hadn’t met them in person yet and I did recently. When I did, it felt like a friendship. I didn’t have those feelings I had from a distance. I think it was probably mostly a “favorite person” BPD thing, which I haven’t done in years. We...

I can't communicate. I don't even know if they like me. I'm putting unfair burdens on them by existing and feeling this way. It's obviously one sided and I was stupid to believe that someone like that could like someone like me. I know I'm a good person but I'm also not. I'm both. I can't do this.

I rode horses for 10 years and this was a huge theme. Where you look you landed, so you had to keep looking where you were going, thinking about the next fence line or dressage move, and if you looked down you'd end up falling off. I'll keep that to inspire. Keep looking forward!! Love this...

I think I base a big part of my self worth on being right. I was raised where if you made a mistake, you were bad, so you had to know if you were "right" about something before it happened or you were a failure. This is the narrative of my grandfather though, who also never learned from his...

Thank you @Warrior Chicken ! I’m going to write some of them down here. I’m a wonderful caring, thoughtful friend. I’m socially conscious and try to uplift marginalized communities. I’m creative and we like doing similar art things and can collaborate (like we’re planning on when I’m there) I...

thank you @Survivor3 I'll go review that list on the sight/my workbook. I'm getting even more down about myself right now and I think I'm emotionally self harming. It's just like everything's gone wrong before, I shouldn't hope for anything.

Thank you for your response @Wendell_R and I'm glad you were able to start asking for things! I also have this issue, a deep mistrust and fear of people. I've been avoiding reaching out to people for about two years before I finally let more people in this past December, and since then I've been...

I've got a great opportunity to move somewhere with a new friend (who is just awesome, and I have a little crush on), and I'm traveling to see them soon. I am more excited than I've been in years, about anything. But when I get excited, I feel like I also start thinking in the future, about how...