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This comment helps me so much This helps alot to read a bit about your experience, thank you for sharing... It's so hard, I know. Sometimes I just know that it's too much for the session so have to pick and choose which to look at... Ok, yes I can see how you've laid it out how that works (in...

I'm just not understanding any of this!! I think multiple parts have multiple feelings. Some conflicting. And I really can't understand any of it. Also because it's bubbled up so quickly. Teenager has 'love' feelings towards T. She also hates him. And also has darker sexualised (abuse...

f*ck you're right

Thanks @arfie @Movingforward10 @Midnightmoon @Sideways @Friday and @parrotthepolly really appreciate your input Oh god. I'm a bit confused. So T does work relationally. And from what you're all saying I should speak with him about this. But omg this is so difficult!! Ok... the whole...

Uggh could really do without this but can't ignore any more. I have OSDD. My teenage part has started to develop feelings for my T who is around the same age as adult me. Doesn't help that he is quite good looking 😕. As adult me, I don't have any romantic feelings towards him AT ALL. So this is...

Thank you for your thoughts @Lily44 i appreciate it 🙏

Thank you so much for your reply @Sideways ... i think i must have switched since you wrote it because I've only just become aware of myptsd again... I've been really quite ill actually but I'm coming out the other side this week so will get back about what you wrote because it's helpful...

Of course! Duh ! I think by default no one ever is..I mean even if it is ready to do the work, who is willingly going into this with a 'I'm ready to take it all on' attitude!? I can see what your T means though... Well done... Yes yes end yes. Quality community of strong and wise people...

Yes you're right...I guess I am having more glimpses and openings where I see this.. sometimes I'm half in and half out... it's really hard work isn't it? But yeah I wasn't aware how much these processes were doing tu my life and I still have trouble accepting and seeing some things... but I'm...

You know how something can hit at the right time and have a real impact? That's what your post did, along with @Sideways' post... I've been down the rabbit hole so many f*cking times thinking about this and scenarios like it... what was it? Was it just me? Am I the sick one for seeing it that...

I really relate to this.. the older I get, the more situations I'm in with others, the more how I see my brain works like this too.. and it can be difficult for others to work along side me because of it... that's just how I am though... That made me laugh!

thanks @Ecdysis ... it is helpful. I haven't talked with anyone on the outside world, other than T, about anything to do with my dad, like ever. I have had no feedback, other that Ts, about it and i have no concept (in relation to myself) of what is normal, what is abusive, what's just...

It does help a bit. At least, this is something recognised by others and that someone can relate to. Feel less alone in that so that's good. How do you deal with that back and forth conflicting dynamic @Sideways ? It's doing my head in and sometimes it feels insurmountable

Ok, this is interesting to hear for me I think fear would be the word. 'He was ruling that interaction'. Yes that's correct, he was. I had considered this before but it made me feel bad, so I didn't give it more thought. I sometimes wonder, if I had a child protection person come judge a...

This is embarrassing and hard to reach out for feed back. But it's something which has become a bit obsessive (thinking about/ trying to understand) for me, because I have different parts of me holding different and conflicting views about it, and their different, opposing reactions are...

sounds like she guided you through it all in a very structured way.... what's bkts? I know a bit about family systems but not sure what bkts is... 😔 T has said he thinks that my brain is possibly hiding stuff re memories from me... and I'm just like, please can we not talk about things which...

Thanks @Freida makes sense... So did T see your parts before you did? Can i ask how she got you to 'see them'? I imagine that would have been scary as f*ck... 💜 I've been meaning to read this for a good long while... that and the one by janina fisher - fragmented parts of ourselves or...

Thank you so much for sharing all you have @Renly ... i feel less alone in my experience when i hear of others' experiences... though, as always, I'm sorry any of us are in this situation. Did you feel you had defined parts at the beginning of this journey? This is very similar to my...

Thanks @Freida ... it's good to hear about others' experiences ... I'm glad you got what I'm saying (even writing it here feels weird)... So can I ask are you also co-consciuos with some of your parts? Like at times you have an awareness of what it's going on for them simultaneously? Or has it...

Hi @Renly good to hear from you.... thank you for dropping by... I would be interested in your process of getting to know your parts... i struggle a bit with this because there is such poor definition of parts, certainly in terms of identity and ages etc..i can get a rough idea but it's not...

Hi @Ecdysis! Good to hear from you... how are you doing? You make a really good point here... not all dissociative conditions have parts... but I guess I'm discovering that i do, so I guess it applies to me... although I don't have DID, I have OSDD... I think that's what I meant by saying...

I'm talking about the feeling of unreality rather than integrating... I think to try to integrate (which is complex) I need to first not be feeling he unrealness I experience about it... but I don't know how to do that... if that makes sense

Good sleek - falling asleep within about 45 minutes and sleeping a good 7 hours. Bad sleep on average takes me about 5 hours to get to sleep. I'll get about 2.5-3.5 hours sleep. When that happens my adrenaline system is so fired up i can feel quite good the day after... then I crash the next day

I'm receiving therapy from a clinic which specialises in dissociative disorders... I've always struggled with accepting the diagnosis (denial is strong) and I've been told its all part and parcel of being so dissociative, having strong amnesia etc. Communication with my parts is difficult...

Could you come at it from the pov of, rather than searching for a black and white truth or not, you weigh up the consequences of believing or not believing someone or something? And then make your decision based on that? I know that's a kind of risk-based approach in a way, but it could go...